WHY?!?!?! [long post]

[Diesel2NR]

I'm getting depressed over some crap that's been happening...I guess when it rains it pours, so excuse me while I vent some of my rage, frustration, and sadness.

Nothing has seemed to go right in the past couple months. It all seemed to start with little things, but then it all picked up velocity and my life seems to be getting torn apart. The big things are what's getting me down. I had my head up and was doing a great job keeping it there. I was happy to be alive, even if life wasn't going the way I wanted it to. People say that life's hard, but compared to what??

Anyway, the first large thing that went wrong was my wreck. I still can't believe that I wrecked it. I went through some standing water that was mainly in a turn last saturday. When I shifted in the water and let the clutch out, low and behold, the tires started spinning. The tail whipped out from behind me twice and I lost control on the third time. It happened too fast and my foot slipped off the clutch. I let off the gas, but still ended up going through/under a chainlink fence and clipping a tree, scratching and denting my truck to hell. My fucking tonneau cover is broken and the insureance company doesn't pay for aftermarket equipment (i'm out $219 there unless I can fix it myself). The whole truck needs repainted, a new windshield, a new shock (busted it), and a couple dents pulled. The insureance company is charging me a $500 deductible now for the damage to my truck and property damage. The only damage that is there is the post I ran over and I could've replaced that for $30 max. So I get charged $250 for it?? They're also raising my deductibles to $500 apiece and my insureance will rise "approximately 100 dollars a month, sir".

A week before I wrecked, I asked the girl of my dreams out. She's beautiful, understanding, and I can understand her. We've been through a lot. We dated for a couple of weeks back in October, but her dad threatened to shoot me and told me never to come around. Story is, Marra (my girl) got into drugs before she met me. When we got together, I told her I didn't like it and she quit for me. Now, her dad thinks I was the one who got her on pot and I was dealing it through her. He'd found out about it a few weeks before I brought her home after a day at the go-cart race tracks. I was like when he told me never to bring my drugs around his house again. I hate drugs, drug dealers, and all their hommies who "roll 40 deep", whatever that means. Well, now that we're back together, I was going to go have a talk with her dad and explain what happened and who I really am. Anyway, we were supposed to be going to the movies together today and Putt-Putt Fun'n'Games Friday. Not now that I wrecked the truck.

But to make matters worse, Marra seemed to be the last person I had. My best friend started being an ass the other day and I told him to go fuck himself and never to come around again. Maybe I'll be better off without him. Marra is the only person I have left to tell my problems too now...or so I thought...cause this whole shibang gets worse.

Now my girlfriend is in jail. Apparently she told the dealer she was getting her pot last summer to leave her alone and never to come around. I don't guess the little punk likes losing business because he called the cops and said that he and 3 others saw her trying to break into his house. Now the girls is 15, going on 16. She ain't that type, much less is she strong enough to do the damage they claim she did (kicked in door, busted window, etc.). But there's 4 people claimin they saw her trying to do it. Now she's going to Juvi and I don't know what to do. I don't know how to tell her I love her and I'm there for her...I don't even know how to be there for her right now. She just ain't the type of girl who's going to go into one of the Juvi Detention Centers here and come out the same. She's a decent person and I know she didn't do that shit. She was arrested yesterday afternoon. I'm sure the truth will come out cause her dad and brother were both home with her all day.

Sorry for the long post, but I don't know what to do. Marra seemed like she was the only person concerned with my life. I love her and miss her. I feel empty with her and I don't know what to do about it. I can't just go and jump the guy who accused her, cause that'll probably just make things worse and the shit deeper. Just needed to get all that off my chest, even if no one's listening.

[ac427cpe]

ouch man, that sux bad... and i thought not being able to really see my g/f through the summer was bad. best of luck that everything can still work out though.

[jon@af]

that's heavy man Im sure everything will work out for you. And dont forgot, you've got us here at AF if you need to chat with anybody on anything. In the mean time, good luck.

[speediva]

All I can say is that I'm sorry and that it's good you can come here and let it off your chest. Feel free to contact me if you want to talk sometime.

[Diesel2NR]

Marra's brother just called me with good news. The judge at the preliminary hearing (I think that's what he called it...never been to court) said that 4 people wasn't enough evidence in his opinion and let her go home, but there will still be a trial. The state's side said they want to try and find more evidence. She's still grounded though, but I feel better knowing she's home. I had her brother tell her I love her and I'm there for her. This is good news for me, even if I can't talk to her. I feel like I can hold my head up now.

[Oz]

All I can say is that sucks and I'm sorry dude. But TALK TO HER. As long as she tells the cops the whole truth and they can't tie her to the scene, she will hopefully get off.

[Diesel2NR]

I'm mainly talkin to her through her brother. I don't see why she's still grounded, but I guess that's the way her dad is. Maybe he still thinks she's into pot or something and this has something to do with it. I think the "case" will fall apart though. My truck's still wrecked though, so for now, I still don't have a way of taking her out when she gets ungrounded. I feel better knowing she ain't stuck with a bunch of "thugs" in Juvi though.

[HogieGT-R]

hey man AF is pullin for ya and i hope that everything gets better... i hope that the truck is back to tip-top shape in no time....insurance sucks, but just think of it as life's curveballs...just remember...when life gives you shit, you can always grow a rose garden out of it

oh and when life gives you lemons..throw them at people