Ever hurt someone you care so much about?

[kris]

Well, first off, let me say, this is going to be my last post on AF for awhile. Frankly, I am not in the mood.

Today, I hurt someone, who I care for with all my heart. I was not planning on things turning out this way, but they did. I guess I did not care enough though, because I allowed this to happen.

Jenny came into my life, at a time when I felt empty. I was just going through the motions of life. Not really having much to look foreward to when I would wake up in the mornings. She is a wonderfull person. Smart, funny, careing. She was always able to make me smile as well. You could say, she swept me off my feet. For once, I looked foreward to waking up, because I knew she would be there. I dreaded the time, when I would have to say goodnight, because I knew it would be that much longer, until I could hear her voice again. We could sit and talk for hours, which we did. Some nights we could talk away. While others, we wouldnt have much to say, but to me, the silence was ok.

I fear now, because of the situation I am in, and because of what happened, I will not be able to hear her voice in the mornings. I will not be able to hold her, to fall asleep next to her, or to kiss her soft lips. She truly made me happy, but now I fear all is lost. I dont think I will ever be able to forget Jenny, even though she may say it would be for the best if I did. Had there been more time, and if things were different. Or even if there will be another chance. I think I could find myself whispering in Jenny's ear, 'I love you..'

Sorry to ramble on to everyone here. But I think it is good to get things out in the open, so I can re-read my thoughts.

[primera man]

Very touching KB.
A sign of a good man is someone who is not scared to show his feelings.
That i take my hat off to you.

I wish you well and hope that things will turn out OK, or how you want them to in the long run.

I'm sure i speak for a lot of the guys here in wishing you well.


Take Care Brother

Primera Man.

[DVSNCYNIKL]

It takes an even bigger man to admit his mistakes. Although you and I have never gotten along that well, I'll give you credit Kris. You're more forgiving than I and also a lot more understanding. Without getting into your business, I hope things work out for you and that you are able to have things back to the way they were. If you can get her to look at this screen for a sec.

Jenny:

Kris is a good guy. We all make mistakes and at times say things in the heat of the moment. Not necessarily saying what is in our minds or hearts but in reaction to what is happening to us. At times we get angry and never realize that the person we love is listening to our words or observing our actions. What I want to say is, find it in your heart to forgive Kris for whatever it is he said or did. I'm sure that it was not meant to be taken that way and that in reality he really does love you.







Kris: I don't know you, and though we've butted heads the few times we have spoken. I hope things get back to normal for you and we'll be waiting here to see how things turn out. Hopefully for the better.


DVS

[Moppie]

wow, man. Heavy!

As PM and DVS said that was a very touching speach, [sniff] it sounds like you must really really care for her, in which case all I can is dont give up.
I have no idea what happened, but if she "found" you in a down state, and stuck beside you, and helped you back on your feet, then she must have cared for you, and probobly still does, give her some time to cool down then call her. Meet her somewhere neutral, and just as you did above tell her how you feel.

Good luck man.

and remember if it dosnt work out, stay strong, theres nothing worse than climbing out of deep hole, only to let go of the edge and fall back in.

[redvalkrie]

[Jay!]

I don't know what to say, but I think DVS and Warren have covered it already. Let me know if you need anything.

[speediva]

Kris, I haven't been here long, but in that time I've seen what a caring, compassionate person you are. I hope that Jenny can see through this rough spot and find the kind-hearted, loving you inside. Good luck, and feel free to contact me at ANY time.

~Tangie~

[kris]

I just wanted to say thanks to all those who have replied. It does mean alot to me. I am glad AF has such a loving community.

[GOD]

I know i'm kinda late but I just wanted to tell you kris that your a great guy ! You've helped me out alot with my own problems and you've also shared alot with me about your life and who you are where you came from and other interesting things about yourself . I know lately we haven't really talked that much like we use to but ....I just wanted to tell you that I love ya ! not in a gay way but in a way that I care for you and I hope you see this post ..I dunno if you will since it's closed but you know I'm here for ya even though i'm some 2000 miles away I'm ALWAYS here for you

[Moppie]

Out of respect for Kris and God I have decided not to make any comments about the above post.
Ill leave it up to the readers imagination.