Life ...kinda long

[GOD]

I just wanted to vent out alot of my problems and sadness and confusion . One of my best friends came back for a week from boot camp and is now going to camp lajune i dont think thats how u spell it but oh well . He's in the marines and I just had a blast with him this week going out and partying and getting tore up like tha good ole days . Now he's gone again and I feel like there's an emptyness inside of me I've known him since 5th grade we go way back and even thought the marines changed him a little bit and it took him about 5 days to become normal again like the old adam that i knew before he left for parris island . Theres just alot of emotions running through me right now and I don't seem to be able to handle it and some is good and some is bad . I know its a stage of life where people grow up and move on with there lifes but the more that I think about it ...it makes me sad
Another thing is I owe so much freaking money it isnt even funny i'm in debt up tha asshole lets see 300 for car payments for this month 300 for credit card due on tha 6th of this coming month . Owe my bro 200 owe one of my buddys 130 uh...lets see well there are some people that owe me money hum...about 550 total from the two people that owe me . I guess this is what they call LIFE I argue with my mom and I feel really bad about it and I also do that with my brother about stupid shit and I know sometimes that I'm wrong and I just feel bad for things that i say and do . I also feel that I wont accomplish anything in life I with drew from one of my classes in college b/c i was failing it and now i'm failing another one and things just don't seem to be looking any better . My girl situation is up in the air ,there is a girl that i'm kinda interested but I really don't know if she's interested . I guess i'm prob gonna try to find out this week if i don't chicken out . I think those are all my problems .....on and people in general piss me off alot rude ass people that are just jerks they make me just want to slam there head into the pavement . I'm sure there's more problems I'll just add them on here as more come up .

[speediva]

*hug* I can understand a little bit of that.

A friend I had just made went to Parris Island for marine bootcamp, and when he came back, he was changed. He didn't care about me like he had before... but that's another story.

I really hope that things turn out for you. I know things can all look bad at one moment and change the next. Just remember that every curse may be a blessing in disguise. I sense that you will be just fine.

[MercCougarXR7]

Life is nothing but a continual Bitch.

At least, my Life insurance policy pays out for Suicide !

[CivicType-R]

Hermmmiee - hey man i feel your pain - i have lost alot of life long best friends to other schools and lost touch wiht them - i guess its kinda my fault but not all cases - i am in debt soooo much too - i finally started paying my dad off - i started paying you off - as soon as my debts are payed ill be getting that new car i keep talkin about - wont that be a great thing - uhhhh it frustrates me sooo much to know that i can get a car but then i cant b/c i owe you and my dad money - when its payed off ill be happy again - the whole girl thing is up in the air for me to and you know that - i have something to tell you about the girl thing later - just remind me later or just call me . hope things get better for ya -

[DVSNCYNIKL]

Originally posted by GOD
I just wanted to vent out alot of my problems and sadness and confusion . One of my best friends came back for a week from boot camp and is now going to camp lajune i dont think thats how u spell it but oh well . He's in the marines and I just had a blast with him this week going out and partying and getting tore up like tha good ole days . Now he's gone again and I feel like there's an emptyness inside of me I've known him since 5th grade we go way back and even thought the marines changed him a little bit and it took him about 5 days to become normal again like the old adam that i knew before he left for parris island . Theres just alot of emotions running through me right now and I don't seem to be able to handle it and some is good and some is bad . I know its a stage of life where people grow up and move on with there lifes but the more that I think about it ...it makes me sad

Starting with this part, it's a common thing that a bond between two friends that grew up together is almost as tight as one with a sibling. What you're going through right now is normal and you should be able to embrace. Look at it this way, it's someone you really care about and someone who you really appreciate. One thing I would like for you to keep in mind is, as we all go through changes, it is important for us to analyze why the change is happening and adapt to it. Like many challenges that lie ahead, you should be able see it and acknowledge it. Your friend is going through some changes because the path he has chosen deems it necessary. Whether you acknowledge it or not, you're probably concerned that the closest thing you had, might not be there later on. Just hang in there, as I am sure this will change and you two will become even better friends when he comes back.



Another thing is I owe so much freaking money it isnt even funny i'm in debt up tha asshole lets see 300 for car payments for this month 300 for credit card due on tha 6th of this coming month . Owe my bro 200 owe one of my buddys 130 uh...lets see well there are some people that owe me money hum...about 550 total from the two people that owe me . I guess this is what they call LIFE

I've been there and have to say it doesn't look nice. As a matter of fact, I'm there right now. I understand how stressful things are right now, it's like every other week a new bill comes and you find yourself sacrificing something just to make ends meet. As someone with a lot of experience in being up to my neck with debt, I have this to say: Keep your head up! Trust me, I've found myself going weeks without a dime in my pocket or enough money to even put gas in my car. You just have to be certain about one thing, and that is that no matter what, you control your situation. My advice to you would be, try(I know this may seem impossible) and focus on the smallest bill. By paying off all your smaller bills, it frees up money to handle your larger bills. Try and avoid borrowing from people. Regardless of how easy it is to attain, you're just adding to the problem. This of course, is what you don't want. I would tell you to get a second job, but that is dependent on you. You go to school and thus, have your hands full with that. But a picture that I would like to paint is, remember, friends are always going to be there. So if you have to sacrifice your time to chill so that you can breathe a little easier, it's worth making it. You have to see what you owe in total. Then work out the details. I've worked two jobs and went to school. Not saying for you to do the same, but something you can consider to help you out.


I argue with my mom and I feel really bad about it and I also do that with my brother about stupid shit and I know sometimes that I'm wrong and I just feel bad for things that i say and do.

The stresses that you are going through right now, are contributing to your lashing out. I suggest as a friend, that you try and collect yourself. Realize that you put a strain on family when you feel that you have to lash out at them. Focus on what is at hand, your debt, and then worry about everything else. Talk to someone as needed. If you want, holla at me on aim while I am at work, send me a pm first so that I turn it on. I'll talk to you and throw some ideas your way.


I also feel that I wont accomplish anything in life I with drew from one of my classes in college b/c i was failing it and now i'm failing another one and things just don't seem to be looking any better .

Please, no matter how bleek things look, don't EVER give up like that. Things have a way of working themselves out. Believe that!!

My girl situation is up in the air ,there is a girl that i'm kinda interested but I really don't know if she's interested . I guess i'm prob gonna try to find out this week if i don't chicken out . I think those are all my problems .....on and people in general piss me off alot rude ass people that are just jerks they make me just want to slam there head into the pavement . I'm sure there's more problems I'll just add them on here as more come up .

Right now, the last thing you are going to need is a girlfriend. I say this because of what is involved. Remember, you have to solve certain situations before you add to your plate. If anything, be friends with her, as that will bear more fruit later on when you are out of the woods with your current situation. Let me know if I can be of more assistance.

[GOD]

Thanks alot guys I just need to vent out my frustration and all the stuff that has been built up in me . And Dvs thanks alot and i mean it what you said kinda helped out a little bit but i think i'm gonna close this thread and once again thanks

[DVSNCYNIKL]

Anytime!