I just wanna be alone

[-Josh-]

That's all i want...I'm tired of being around people like friends, family, coworkers...I have to get away because i can't take this anymore...

When my girlfriend broke up with me a few weeks ago it opened up a hole in my heart, and i've tried being with people and friends to forget about it, but i was by myself tonight and that's all i thought about. But there's nothing i can do because i have to finish up college by next year... And it's not just my ex that's causing these feelings, i seem to have this sense of lonliness know matter who i'm with, like i dont belong here....I've had that feeling for about two years now.... I wanna move to Chicago because i know there are lots of opportunities for my field of work, and that would mean leaving everything behind, which is perfect... All i want is to be alone, i dont wanna talk to people anymore, i dont want social contacts, no more parties, no more family gatherings, no more hanging out with friends, just me. I'm not depressed because i know that to be depressed you have to be seeing a Dr. for it for at least 3 years to be clinically depressed.... Anyone else feel like you just have to get away from everything? I'm the kind of person who has to be alone for long periods of time to clear my head....

[Jas_M]

If you want to be alone, then move to Chicago and be done with it. If it'll make you happy, cool. If it doesn't work out, cool. At least you'll know. Then again, i live in Chicago, so i'll know you're here, even though i don't know you. Ya know?

[-Josh-]

I think i just wanna do what Jon(swigz) did when he went to college, i just want to start a new life and be done with everyone that i know, i was the happiest i had ever been not more than a week ago, but now i realize it was just me trying to tell myself that i was, from denial.....

[Jas_M]

So move dude. If you think that's what you want, go for it. Chicago is a great place to live.

[-Josh-]

I cant yet, i have to finish college, i'm can't move until i know i can have a stable career, which makes it all even worse

[91300zxtt]

ya jas m, i used to live in chicago too, down in the damn burbs for now, but z28 man bring your ass up here. so much to do and you can get lost in the crowd and not worry about a thing if thats what you are into. if you want friends around thats easy as hell too man. i actually live about 20 minutes from swigz as of now

[Gotti]

I could never do that.... Thats why i was scared of goin somewhere else for college cause i didnt wanna leave my friends. Starting over would suck... leaving people you've known for years.

You should be tight with your boys, if not they aint your real friends

[-Josh-]

Yeah, but it's not them, they had no part in whats going on right now. I think it's just getting time for me to move on with my life and i dont know how they're all going to take it(family and friends). But that's exactly what i want to do 91300ZXTT(what's your name anyway?), i want to blend in and be alone for a few years, then maybe start making new friends again.

[Hypsi87]

Man cheer up . Not all is bad all the time. I have been through alot between family, school, women, and everything in between. It all hapens for a reason. I know that I like where I am at now but, if some of the crap that happend to me did not happen, I probabally would be some where elese and be completely someone I am not, and I like the person I am. Hang in there and it will all be good in the hood.


There is a quote that I like alot and I have no clue who said it.

"If your not happy in one place, you probabally won't be happy somewhere elese. Happines is what YOU make of it."

[jcsaleen]

Haha 1 word ~ Bahamas! Bahamas my friend bahamas is the key to relaxation do NOT go to the nassau area thats where the festivitys and kids are. Go to grand bahama island I stayed there f0r 18 days strait when I came back I was so relaxd one of my friends punched me just to get me 2 focus strait. ahhhhh feels sooo good. look for a resort named "our lucaya" means our home btw.

[dirtydx]

i feel exactly the same... i grew up in a small town, and lived out in the country side for the past 3 years... i just moved into a city and i HATE it. i just wanna be completely alone..

the happiest time of my life was when i was living out in the boonies.. i had no job, no friends, no school, no responsibilities, and lots of weed.. fuck was i ever happy.

its good to get a new start, if ya don't belong... its definitely time to move on.. its so shitty having an ex to worry about as well.

[98gtstang]

just think the second your done with school you can get your a$$ to Chicago and be happy i know now its gotta sux but just think in a lil while you'll be free

[91300zxtt]

hey z28 my name is eric

[-Davo]

Sometimes I just wanna be alone too, I know how you feel.

[958Rocky]

sorry man, I know how you feel, it really sucks.

hope you feel better