Breakup with gf... so many lies... so many...

[90gs]

ok me and my gf hung out every day for a month prior to dating, then dated for 5 months and 27 days and were together EVERY SINGLE DAY for the ENTIRE dating period except a 3 day period when she went to relatives. we decided to take a week off because we both noticed that the sparks werent flying as much anymore. then last night, after the week off, we went out to the movies. we saw underworld and i was sorta tired so i put up the arm rests and sprawled accross a few seats and had my head in her lap. she stroked my hair and rubbed my back and i fell asleep. when i woke up towards the end of the movie she was still stroking my hair and rubbing me. then when she sees my eyes open she reaches down and kisses me a lot and says "i love you" then hugs me really tight.

then that night i stayed over at her house and before we went to bed i said "so we're back together now?" and she said "im not sure, i dont know if i want to". then today she gives me the ultimatum, she doesnt want to get back together. she wants to be single, and date nobody.

towards the end of the relationship if we were apart for almost a day (like hang out in the morning 1 day and not until the next evening... still EVERY DAY mind you) she would msg me saying that she misses me. then when i got to her house she wasnt that excited, and tonight she told me that she only sent me those text messages to me saying that she missed me out of habit.

then i asked her if she did anything with anybody during our week off and she said "no" then "you?" and i said "actually, yes. at a party 2 nights ago these 2 girls asked me to compare the feel of their breasts, then the one i told was better kissed me for a while, then i made out with another girl, and fingered another" and she said "actually i did do something, i was just seeing what you would say, nick kissed me on the cheek the other night when we were all drunk". now what i did was a lot worse, but i dont really care because we were broken up.

and i was really into this girl too. i had absolutely no inclination to check out other girls, and completely shut down girls who tried to flirt with me at work or otherwise. so now i have no idea what im going to do. theres no girl i like, and the ones that liked me dont anymore because i was rude to them before.

i am crying right now. i havent cried in probably 6 years. my best friend has died, a few of my cats have died, my grandma has died, ive crashed my car, ive been punched in the face in a fist fight recently, and i never had any emotion at all towards any of it. its video games i swear... i used to cry a lot more often, then i started playing bloody video games and i aquired an 'i dont care' attitude... but whatever. i just needed to get this out.

as for the lies stated in the topic, i dont feel like going into the other things i found out after the breakup, about the things she told me, compared to the truth.

[YogsVR4]

You shot yourself in the foot by fooling around with those two other girls. If you had any intention of getting back together with this girl, you had to keep your appendages to yourself. I don't care that you were broken up at the time. She wanted to see how much you were really pining for her and by what you did, it looks to her that you weren't.

Sorry dude, but you're going to have to let this one go. Let her come back to you but don't even try to be friends with her for the short term (don't be rude, but go your seperate ways for a month or two). She'll play you like a fiddle if you do.

[TexasF355F1]

I have to agree with Yogs on this one. However, girls can be such bitches that she lied and did more than kiss that guy. And even if you hadn't messed around she probably still would have broken up with you. Girls screw with our heads too damn much.

[90gs]

we had already talked for about half an hour about how she wanted to stay single after the week off because it "gave her time to think". i tried to change her mind and she was set. i figured i might as well.

i wouldnt have said it if i didnt know her... back before we dated we hung out and told each other that we liked one another but we didnt wanna hookup yet. she made out with some guy from work during that phase before we dated and when she told me a few months into dating she was like "WHAT? we werent together then.." she doesnt care if you do stuff with others when you're together with someone.

[Steel]

Not worth it. Trust me. And get used to the lies, that doesn't end.

I don't really have much good to say about girls right now other than, forget it. Move on to the next, but don't get attached. Just do what they do, and sleep around in a drunken state all the time...

grr, nevermind.

[90gs]

man there was a few times in the weeks leading up to the breakup when i was getting sick of her and the only thing keeping me from breaking up with her is that i didnt want to be alone. then after the week off all the sickness of her was worn off and i was almost as crazy for her in the first weeks of our relationship. i was hurt when we broke up in the end... i wish i would have broken up with her before our week off.

before the week off i suggested we take a day or 2 not seeing each other and she cried up a fucking hurricane and said "YOU WANT TO BREAK UP WITH ME!!!" so i just said forget it because she was crying too much. i wish i had broken up with her then because then she'd be the one hurting instead of me. she just sent me a text message a few hours ago that said "i hope everything is as easy for you as it was for me". Bitch. she still wants to be friends but i dunno...

[Strider Negro]

well this reminds me of myself a while ago...the first thing you gotta do is cry and get all of your hurt out.
reading and writing will also help you heal
hanging out with your friends more often should at least numb the pain until you get home and than just think of your ex.
the only thing that will help you is time...just sit back and let time pass by because if all you do is think about her just think of what you learned from the relationship...stop beating yourself up about it and go out, have fun and live your life
she obviously is and it's these times when you actually can say she wasn't for me even though you probably think that...all you need to do is chill...that's all...all i can say to you is good luck
i was at that same spot almost a year ago when i went into a 9 month depression thanks to my ex...but now i have a new gf and i'm really happy so one day you will be too just not right now...

[sameintheend01]

fuck it, chicks are for fags (dumb and dumberer joke). If you hooked up with some chicks while you were broken up, then fuck it, you'll find another chick. do fret, all the shit hits the fan at the same time...always.