`!(*$#%@ finals week!

[Shpyder]

Ok. Breath innnnn.....breathe ouuuutttttt..... Oh man oh man oh man. Ok that's it no more damn ephedra/coffee/energy drink cocktails. For tonight anyway.


I hate the quarter system. The pressure is intense. Claustophobic even. I need my GPA to stay up there or it's the boot. Almost across the finish line, 3 more quarters at university and I am DONE. Can't stop now. Can't screw up now. I look at people who got done with their Bachelors with such admiration and awe. Like, POW's who escaped and came back victorious. Like frikkin warriors, battle-hardened and experienced with the wisdom they had to struggle to get. It's not easy for a lugnut like me, I can swear I have a disorder of some sort. I lose it on every exam and I black out, yet, just minutes before the exam, I'll be rattling off pages upon pages of info I've stored in my skull. This is ridiculous. I'll ace every HW assignment, every extra-credit, every small quiz or test, but not exams. Panic attacks, extreme sweating, pen slips out of my hand, I even caught myself drooling one time. WTF is wrong with me? Fuckin retard. Every time. But I'm gonna make this B.Sc. in Biochem my B!TCH. Some of my friends who couldnt do this hard shit and went on to major in under-water basket-weaving and called me nuts, and told me I wasnt a "science sort of guy". Oh man. Can't wait to get through this.

I am so stressed holy crap. I am never like this, just during the exams, but the anxiety is catching up. Courses getting harder, me questioning myself more and more every day, but I'm so close. 5 community colleges through 3 cities and I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. I can do this I can do this I can do this.

*goes back to the books, Eye of the Tiger starts blaring in the background, pick up the pencil, commences to regugitate a weeks worth of cramming.


Sorry for the total waste of space, I just needed to post this.

[doberman_52]

Test anxiety? I used to get really stressed before all of my tests. Now I just don't care. But then I'm still in high school. Cant wait for college.

[beef_bourito]

you really need to learn to relax, somehow learn to just stop worrying so much. I never worry before a test or exam because i see no point in it, what is it going to accomplish. also i know i'm smart enough to do well on the test/exam so i know if i put in the right ammount of effort i've got nothing to worry about. also you've got to think that it really doesn't matter how well you do as long as you stay in the program, just keep your average at whatever level it needs to be at and don't worry about it. I always know it'll work out in the end, well i know that anything can happen but i know i can accomplish what i want, even if it takes me some extra time.

also, both my parents were in biochem, my dad got his Bsc in bichem (4 year degree) and my mom got her general science degree (3 years). my mom's an accountant and my dad did some electrical engineering and is now in management. let's say you don't finish with a degree in biochem, you might still end up somewhere similar if you get a degree in chem or biology, your degree doesn't necessarily determine your job. i've heard of civil engineers working as mechanical engineers.

you might consider learning some meditation techniques, controled breathing, self hypnosis, that kind of thing, it could help.

[Shpyder]

Originally Posted by beef_bourito

you might consider learning some meditation techniques, controled breathing, self hypnosis, that kind of thing, it could help.

I seriously need to look into that. These panic attacks cause palpitations during the exams, I can actually feel my heart in my mouth. It's funny (though a little counter-argumentative), but I'd rather be relaxed and do poorly on an exam, than be stressed-out like I am, and do well. I know it sounds silly, but that stress is just eating away at me.

Yoga, here I come! (plus there's a lotta MILFs at the Yoga classes at my local 24, so that's even more insentive for me to join!)