this week :(

[quteasabutton]

so this past week or so hasn't really been the greatest. it all started back the weekend of my 18th birthday (april 16).

i went to spend the weekend with my best friend in his dorm room. he also happens to be my ex, but we still have all the "benefits". things between him and i have been complicated for so long. i love him a lot and care about him as my friend and while i still want to be with him, he doesn't. we dated while i was a sophomore and he was a senior, and when he left for college we ended up breaking up. we've pretty much acted like a couple since we broke up in aug 04, and then 2 days ago, he's like i'm done, i never want to sleep with you or kiss you or do anything like that, i've only been doing it to shut you up so you don't cry about that. he told me i'm too clingy and needy and that if i try and touch him this summer he's not going to see me for the entire time he's home. i also told me i am stupid and foolish about decisions i make and that yelling at me like this is the only way to get me to listen to him so im not making "stupid" decisions all the time. he does still love me and care about me, he told me he loved me today even. it's just so hard wanting to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you.

while i did have an awesome time the weekend over my birthday, it turns out i picked up severe pink eye while i was down there. got back suday (april 16), tuesday i started noticing symptoms of it. didn't get it treated until thursday when i realized what it was. went to the doctor, got the medicine and by this monday i was fine. by wednesday, things started happening again. by thursday, i couldn't open my eyes at all, i was in extreme pain and any form of light was very painful. i was at school today for all of 15 minutes before i said fuck this i'm going home. driving was ridiculous, since i can't really open my eyes to see. went to the doctor again, turns out i have 3 ulcers in my cornea.

so here i sit in the dark with sunglasses on trying to block out as much light as i can. this is soooo painful and they have no idea how long it will take to heal. i'm pissed too cuz i'm missing my friend's band's last ever concert since in a month or two they're all shipping out for the navy. i also had a trip planned for tomorrow, that's a no go as well. the only thing i'm allowed to do for the next few days is sit in my room alone in the dark. joy

[BleedDodge]

I had a good week if it makes you feel better.

[quteasabutton]

Originally Posted by BleedDodge

I had a good week if it makes you feel better.

well since i spent mine in tears almost every day..no not exactly. but i'm glad one of us is having a good time

[sv650s]

look at the bright side......at least you still have me, pablo, james bond and the new guy who stole you from us

[Nicole8188]

Originally Posted by quteasabutten

so this past week or so hasn't really been the greatest. it all started back the weekend of my 18th birthday (april 16).

i went to spend the weekend with my best friend in his dorm room. he also happens to be my ex, but we still have all the "benefits". things between him and i have been complicated for so long. i love him a lot and care about him as my friend and while i still want to be with him, he doesn't. we dated while i was a sophomore and he was a senior, and when he left for college we ended up breaking up. we've pretty much acted like a couple since we broke up in aug 04, and then 2 days ago, he's like i'm done, i never want to sleep with you or kiss you or do anything like that, i've only been doing it to shut you up so you don't cry about that. he told me i'm too clingy and needy and that if i try and touch him this summer he's not going to see me for the entire time he's home. i also told me i am stupid and foolish about decisions i make and that yelling at me like this is the only way to get me to listen to him so im not making "stupid" decisions all the time. he does still love me and care about me, he told me he loved me today even. it's just so hard wanting to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you. (

This is deja vu for me. I put up with the exact same thing for almost 2 years. My boyfriend broke up with me last January after 2 years together, but we continued to be together on and off. He'd decide that he didn't want me, then a week later he'd want me so he'd lead me on. He always thought that because it was me and we'd had a relationship that it wasn't using me when he only wanted sex.

The best thing for you to do is get over it. I know it's incredibly hard to do, and I know I'm still not completely over him. I'll always love him, and I'd do anything to help him out, but there isn't a chance in hell that I'd ever want to be with him again. You need to do the same. He sounds like a fickle asshole. Don't let him use you like that and play with your emotions. It's not fair. I spent a year and a half in the worst kind of hell because I loved someone that told me he loved me but didn't want to be with me. It's worse than when they just leave you alone.

I would tell you to find someone new, but that doesn't help either. Preoccupies you at first, but that's about it. Nothing will help you get over him, you just have to do it alone.

Sorry you've had a shitty week. Mine's been about the same. Stressed from work and school, only 9 days left and I have tons of exams and people yelling at me about scholarships and then my mom and I have been arguing all week. You just have to break down sometimes...

[mellowboy]

Omg you're still young! Move on....

[quteasabutton]

Originally Posted by Nicole8188

This is deja vu for me. I put up with the exact same thing for almost 2 years. My boyfriend broke up with me last January after 2 years together, but we continued to be together on and off. He'd decide that he didn't want me, then a week later he'd want me so he'd lead me on. He always thought that because it was me and we'd had a relationship that it wasn't using me when he only wanted sex.

The best thing for you to do is get over it. I know it's incredibly hard to do, and I know I'm still not completely over him. I'll always love him, and I'd do anything to help him out, but there isn't a chance in hell that I'd ever want to be with him again. You need to do the same. He sounds like a fickle asshole. Don't let him use you like that and play with your emotions. It's not fair. I spent a year and a half in the worst kind of hell because I loved someone that told me he loved me but didn't want to be with me. It's worse than when they just leave you alone.

I would tell you to find someone new, but that doesn't help either. Preoccupies you at first, but that's about it. Nothing will help you get over him, you just have to do it alone.

Sorry you've had a shitty week. Mine's been about the same. Stressed from work and school, only 9 days left and I have tons of exams and people yelling at me about scholarships and then my mom and I have been arguing all week. You just have to break down sometimes...

you got it right exactly. people keep telling me to just forget about him and stuff. but i can't, he's still my best friend and loves me very much. he's just an ass when it comes to leading me on and playing me like this. i know he doesn't mean to hurt me but i guess that's just the way things are sometimes. even his friends are really pissed off at him for the sort of things he has said and done to me since we broke up.

he tells me he's sorry for what he's done and feels like an ass for it, and that he never meant to hurt me like this and it was wrong. and he's right, it was wrong.

i've sorta found someone new..i think..he's so sweet and nice to me, never gets sick of talking to me, isn't obsessed with sex and getting in my pants, pretty cute too. i'm just so not used to a guy being nice to me like this. it is a pleasant change, i must admit.

and moms suck. mine is always fighting with me too. mostly about how much i suck at life and all that. only a few more months for us both, then we're free

[Nicole8188]

Hah. My mom and I rarely argue, which is why it sucks so much more. Usually she's the one person that I can vent to, but she hasn't talked to me at all this week. It was making me crazy.

Yeah, he sounds like my ex. They're all the same...he's incredibly smart, but can also be very manipulative. But mostly I think he's indecisive. Didn't know what he wanted. He wanted me, but I'm not the party kind of girl, I'm the kind of girl he wanted to be with when he's ready to settle down. I don't have time to sit around and wait for someone for years though...

He still tells me he's got a private investigator to find me when we're 25 and he's ready to get married. Apparently I'm the only girl he'll ever love.

I have also found someone new that I love very much, but he had nothing to do with my getting over my ex...

[quteasabutton]

Originally Posted by Nicole8188

Hah. My mom and I rarely argue, which is why it sucks so much more. Usually she's the one person that I can vent to, but she hasn't talked to me at all this week. It was making me crazy.

Yeah, he sounds like my ex. They're all the same...he's incredibly smart, but can also be very manipulative. But mostly I think he's indecisive. Didn't know what he wanted. He wanted me, but I'm not the party kind of girl, I'm the kind of girl he wanted to be with when he's ready to settle down. I don't have time to sit around and wait for someone for years though...

He still tells me he's got a private investigator to find me when we're 25 and he's ready to get married. Apparently I'm the only girl he'll ever love.

I have also found someone new that I love very much, but he had nothing to do with my getting over my ex...

i wish my mom loved me and was there for me. i haven't "talked" to her pretty much ever. i've come to realize my parents aren't very good parents. constantly criticizing me, and of lately trying to get me arrested, they've never been there to support me when i needed it. which leads back to wes (my ex) for the last 3 years he has been the one to help take care of me and look out for me, be there for me when i would call him crying about what my parents had done to me that night. i know it's hard on him and all....

[Nicole8188]

I've been blessed with good parents. Well, lately anyway. Was a little rough when I was younger, but they're wonderful now.

A bit strict sometimes, but I don't really mind anymore...Maybe it's because I'm so close to being free.

[quteasabutton]

Originally Posted by Nicole8188

I've been blessed with good parents. Well, lately anyway. Was a little rough when I was younger, but they're wonderful now.

A bit strict sometimes, but I don't really mind anymore...Maybe it's because I'm so close to being free.

yeah mine are getting more strict the older i get. sucks really..no matter what i do its always wrong and getting me in trouble. i could smile and make a joke and my mom calls me a bitch and storms off.

[Nicole8188]

Vitamin B6. Give her some. It helps with those (pre)menopausal mood swings. I don't think menopausal women go well with 17-18-year-old daughters.

[FlippiN.af]

Wow...that sucks...wish it was better for you. I can't really
comment on your experiances since I haven't had pink eye or
a bad relationship...sounds terrible though.
Heres to you getting out of this a-ok.

[2.2 Straight six]

my week's sucked too. i have to finish 3 big art porjects for tuesday, im screwed. i've had 4 days of exams, i found out i did better than i thought. i would've expected that sitting on my ass for 4 hours a day would be easy, seems it's not.

i've been exhausted the whole time, i need to sleep as soon as im home. i'm trying to get my friend to quit smoking/marijuana because if she continues she won't see 50. and there's other stuff that's not helping her.

i missed my friend's birthday and he's pissed off with me, even though he forgot mine.

but the worst is that i fell out with the girl i love over nothing. somethng small. and i know it wasn't much but it really upset me, and i want her to know that i'm sorry for making a big deal out of nothing.

[quteasabutton]

Originally Posted by 2.2 Straight six

but the worst is that i fell out with the girl i love over nothing. somethng small. and i know it wasn't much but it really upset me, and i want her to know that i'm sorry for making a big deal out of nothing.

it'll be ok bond. i know she still loves you a lot. stuff just happens sometimes, so you're right, don't make a big deal out of it. just kiss and make up

agh wes is so fucking drunk now. puking constantly, i think he's up to 8 times now. i hate this, caring so much, not being able to see him or be with him. i don't like how life has it's unfairness like this. it always ends up that everyone i end up liking or caring about a lot doesn't live here in the first place or moves away at least one state away.