Month from hell

[WickedNYCowboy]

I am just about fed up. So far the past month I have had a good friend kill herself, the best friend i have ever had be in a bad car accident. Then later on I found that i was adopted after going my whole life without knowing. Then my sister(from adopted family which i live with) was in a bad car accident on monday and it doesn't look good at all for her making it. So yeah I am frustrated and am angry for the reason i have no idea. I guess I am done venting now.

[Masta]

sorry buddy

[jon@af]

I'm on AIM as J Swigz if wanna talk man.

[Rbraczyk]

Pretty shitty dude. I feel your pain for the most part. AIM: RobBraczyk. I know how it is to go through life with pain. Just I'm me if you need to talk. I'm here for ya.

[Andydg]

My old PE teacher in middle school went until he was about 30 before finding out he was adopted. I just don't understand why the adoptive parents don't talk about it with the kids when they're really young, like from the time that they get them.

[WickedNYCowboy]

If they told me when they got me I wouldn't have understood what they said. They got me just after I was born. But I don't know. It seems as if the doctors are unsure of the chances. But I know from being around ers and icu as a medic/rescue worker time is of the essence and right now the chances are going down hill faster and faster. I do feel a little bit better my friend matt and his "friend" mary who i am friends with since i met her back in july when i visited him in pa. Some shit went down and i bailed with mary so this way i dont cause a problem and went for a little romping on his camaro and then me and mary talked for a little bit.

[TexasF355F1]

Originally Posted by J_Swigz

I'm on AIM as J Swigz if wanna talk man.

Same here man.

I'm sorry all of this is going on. I know it has to be extremely tough. Having dealt with death all of my life, you just have to try and keep moving on and doing what you do. As hard as it sounds, stay busy. Keep yourself occupied at work, at home, wherever.

Just remember, with the bad comes the good. As hard as that sounds right now just stay as positive as you can. I know how hard it is to be positive when you feel so crappy. Best wishes to you. God bless.

[Fully_Sick]

Dude! that is some harsh shit

Being told that your adopted! dam man , thats like a slap in the face. Why didnt your parents tell you earlier for chrissakes...

oh well , atleast they told you, theres an upside

[-Josh-]

So what's next, are you going to try to find your real parents? Maybe they didn't tell you who your parents were because they were bad people or something. Try and stay open minded about that one, and search for answers before assuming that they held the info from you just to be jerks. I'm sorry to hear about your other issues, hopefully your sister will get better.

[WickedNYCowboy]

I actually wasn't told at all. I found out that I was adopted by getting a letter from my birth mother. But I was angry about something else and got angryer and ripped up the letter without thought. Which was really stupid and I am now regretting it. I am hoping I hear from her again. The stupidst thing was i didn't even read the whole thing threw before doing it. I am really bumbed today. I got the letter a few weeks ago. So this has been brewing up.

[Raz_Kaz]

Well maybe you should try talking to your adoptive parents and getting some questions answered. Like why they never told you, who your biological parents are, where they are etc...

Other than that, good luck with everything

[WickedNYCowboy]

I don't know. I really don't talk to them much. I am not exactly in the talking mood for anyone.

[WickedNYCowboy]

Well I went away for the weekend. But it kind of sucked someone I know ODed on heroin and somethin else I found out a couple weeks ago and it didn't bother me till i got to my friend's appartment from philly then it just really sunk in. But we then went to Cecil County Drag Strip and I ran 12.8 at 117mph in my friends Camaro. It was the most relief from hell. The best time I had in months. Especially cause it was the first time the car got in the 12s and I also beat my friend's time in his own car. But yeah I also didn't get to see a friend who I am not so sure of how good of a friend this person is anymore. I have been looking foward to seeing this person for a long time since crap went to hell again. So now its same shit different day plus a little bit more then before. I am really begining not to care anymore. I am done now.