Angry

[TexasF355F1]

9:00 in the morning and I have so much anger and rage right now. My knuckles are red and swollen from punching the door about a hundred time hard as fuck. If everyone remembers the thread I made about that girl that I like and thought liked me too. Yea well that's done. Last week went to a club and she grabs my roomate and goes straight to the dance floor. I yelled out I got next. Well my roomate supposedly attempted to quit dancing but she pulled him back. He should have known I was pissed. Well by the fourth dance I just get up and leave. I'm drunk as fuck and start walking out of the club with a beer and my hand. The cop blocks me and tells me that thats not going outside. I turn around slam it in the trash and it shatters. I say THERE!

My friend was working at Wal-Greens so I walk over there, while trying to figure out how I'm gonna get home. Then my roomate comes to Wal-Greens and saying this and that. I'm like why the hell am I not gonna be mad. I just said give me your keys I'm going home and I tell him to fucking go back and have a fucking great time. So I make it home and he shows up like 10 mniutes later somehow. He claims he told her that I like her a lot and that she had no idea. Even though I always singled her out, did normal things, surprised her with candy that she specifically pointed out to me was her favorite. Every single girl I know has said it's complete bullshit that she had no idea. They all say she definately knew.

Now to the reason I'm so pissed. I don't trust my roomate. I have a very strong feeling that he's gonna stab me in the back and do something with her when I'm not around. He's already lost trust with our other friends from things he's done. One story in particular, not telling our good friend kenny that his gf was cheating on him, b/c my roomates gf told him not to say anything. What a good friend isn't it? My roomate is the type of person that can be helpful, but in the end he's always looking out for the good of himself.

I'm just so fucking irritated right now. He knows exactly how I feel. Exactly! I've bitched him out once several weeks ago for always saying how hot she looked when I thought things were going good. I've always had a different feeling of him, like something different than the rest of my friends. I now think I figured it out that I don't have total trust in him. Come to find out, I'm not the only one that has always had a different feeling about him either.

It makes all of this 100 times harder since I suffer from depression. I've learned to deal with it, but when shit like this happens it gets really bad. Really really bad. I know time heals all wounds, but time takes too long. I'm just ready for things go to my way. I just want to be happy like I use to be 4 years ago. Hopefully things will get better. I'm just trying to stay positive, but its just so hard.

[Jimmiz71]

Hang in there Jason, Your roomate sounds like a selfish dick. Try and avoid going out with your roomate and dont share your feelings for other girls with him. It sounds like he doesnt show you any respect. When I was in high school we had a kid who would flirt and hit on every girl that hung out with us, eventually we excluded him from the group before someone beat the shit out of him. Space yourself from this kid and the girls that are involved, all this "he said" "She said" bullshit gets twisted from one person to the other. Go out with different friends and go to different Clubs. you deserve to meet someone who will recognize and appreciate the attention you give her. Good Luck.
-Jimmy

[RSX-S777]

Well said, Jimmiz. Good things come to good people. Hang in.

[TexasF355F1]

Thanks yall. Yea I'm sick of the he said she said bullshit. But it's basically part of my life. Even if it doesn't involve me I usually have to get involved with one of my friends. I can't exactly just go hang out with other people. B/c we all hang out with the same people. Thing is we've been friends pretty much all my life. I'm just trying my best to take everything day to day and try my best not to worry about it. Which is obviously easier said than done. I'm going home tomorrow for a day or two so maybe it will clear my head some. At least I pray it does.

On a more humorous note, after punching the door so many times so hard my pinky knuckle swelled up pretty big. When I got home from class I found the dog pissing on the floor. Needless to say I got outraged and hit the dog and re-injured my knuckle. Damn I need to quit hitting shit, but I guess as long as it makes me feel better why quit?

Edit:Ran into her right after I wrote this when I was leaving. She said she wasn't looking for anything right now and she didn't have the strength emotionally. There was more said, but the conversation drifed off to a wierd close probably b/c we were outside in the parking lot. I think its gonna come up again though.

A little more relieved now for some reason.

[GirlInAHotRod]

Uhhhggg don't hit the dog!!! Hit your roomate geeeesh! And, it's not only your roomate you can't trust if your worried what he will do when you're not around..Seems your girlfriend can't be trusted much either. Fine a girl you can trust instead of breaking your hand.

[TexasF355F1]

Originally Posted by GirlInAHotRod

Uhhhggg don't hit the dog!!! Hit your roomate geeeesh! And, it's not only your roomate you can't trust if your worried what he will do when you're not around..Seems your girlfriend can't be trusted much either. Fine a girl you can trust instead of breaking your hand.

HAHA, had to hit the dog. She's been pissing and tearing up everything this week for some reason. She's not my girlfriend, never was. Just a girl who happens to live next door and I like. Shit still bothers me, but today's the first day in about a week I haven't woken up in a fit of rage. So I'm just gonna take it a step back and see what happens from here. Better not to think of him doing something, than thinking he will. If it happens then we'll see where I go from that point.

[Musashi3000GT]

So this roommate of yours has a girlfriend? and still manages to hit on the chick you like? where the hell is his woman to break a bottle over his head? oh and if I may suggest, quit geting drunk. I know to some of you beer is life but if you keep getting drunk then people like me who always stay sober will find a way to screw you up. If he got drunk at that party and you stayed sober then shit might have turnned out different.

[TexasF355F1]

No my roomates single too.

[Neutrino]

Originally Posted by TexasF355F1

Last week went to a club and she grabs my roomate and goes straight to the dance floor. I yelled out I got next. Well my roomate supposedly attempted to quit dancing but she pulled him back. He should have known I was pissed. Well by the fourth dance I just get up and leave. I'm drunk as fuck and start walking out of the club with a beer and my hand. The cop blocks me and tells me that thats not going outside. I turn around slam it in the trash and it shatters. I say THERE!

My friend was working at Wal-Greens so I walk over there, while trying to figure out how I'm gonna get home. Then my roomate comes to Wal-Greens and saying this and that. I'm like why the hell am I not gonna be mad. I just said give me your keys I'm going home and I tell him to fucking go back and have a fucking great time. So I make it home and he shows up like 10 mniutes later somehow. He claims he told her that I like her a lot and that she had no idea. Even though I always singled her out, did normal things, surprised her with candy that she specifically pointed out to me was her favorite. Every single girl I know has said it's complete bullshit that she had no idea. They all say she definately knew.

Allow me another point of view. Your friend sounds like he wanted to stop dancing with her by she dragged him back. often girls will do that, and there is nothing you can do unless you want to insult them.

Second he did came back after you at wal-greens, and then home. So he cared enough to stop his partying to check up on you. IMO if he did not give a crap about you he woul've just stayed at the club.

Originally Posted by TexasF355F1

Now to the reason I'm so pissed. I don't trust my roomate. I have a very strong feeling that he's gonna stab me in the back and do something with her when I'm not around. He's already lost trust with our other friends from things he's done. One story in particular, not telling our good friend kenny that his gf was cheating on him, b/c my roomates gf told him not to say anything. What a good friend isn't it? My roomate is the type of person that can be helpful, but in the end he's always looking out for the good of himself.

To me that says: he is trustworthy. Sounds like he gave his word to your roomates GF that he will not say anything and he kept his word.

Don't take offence to my post but I think you need to think this trough and with calm before you lose your friend.

And last but not least its not worth it to lose your calm because of a girl. She was not your wife so just forget about her, she probably is just like many other girls just playing games. So just get on with your life and call it a lesson.

[Musashi3000GT]

^ well spoken!

[TexasF355F1]

Originally Posted by Neutrino

Allow me another point of view. Your friend sounds like he wanted to stop dancing with her by she dragged him back. often girls will do that, and there is nothing you can do unless you want to insult them.

Second he did came back after you at wal-greens, and then home. So he cared enough to stop his partying to check up on you. IMO if he did not give a crap about you he woul've just stayed at the club.





To me that says: he is trustworthy. Sounds like he gave his word to your roomates GF that he will not say anything and he kept his word.

Don't take offence to my post but I think you need to think this trough and with calm before you lose your friend.

And last but not least its not worth it to lose your calm because of a girl. She was not your wife so just forget about her, she probably is just like many other girls just playing games. So just get on with your life and call it a lesson.

Thank you for your perspective. It's a very good one as well, thank you.

The only part about him I'm not agreeing with you on is not telling our friend about his gf was cheating on him. If my friend or friends knew a girl was cheating on me or I knew they were being cheated on, I would tell them. No matter what. I don't see how any true friend could not.

[kittedb18bt]

geez neutrino! good job.

jason, i have been following your posts and i hope everything works out for you. i have never been in any situation similar to yours, so i cannot offer any advice really.

good luck.

[YogsVR4]

I say don't push your friend to hard. Maybe be a bit more attentive to the things you say around him, but I also think he's probably feeling stuck between a rock and a hard place.

I do hope this situation smooths over for you. Its been a rough several weeks from all the posts I've read.

[imtheoneandonlyD]

I had a friend tell my gf he loved her once, and called her all time trying to get to break up with me. Originally she didnt tell me cause she didnt wanna ruin our friendship but she couldnt take it anymore and told me everything. I told the guy if i ever seen him again i was gonna beat his ass.....havent seen him since.

[LT1 Kayker]

Hoes before hose. Thats what my friend always said when he had a choice to either hang out with me or with some hot chick. I wouldn't blame him, but I think thats all BS. Girls are confuzing as fuck, and they never say what they mean or what they really want, they want you to know without telling you so they can think that you are a perfect match and think the same exact way they do without telling you how they really do or whatever. Even that was confuzing, but yeah I say that whole thing wasn't your fault, and that it sucks when girls do that and your buddy goes for them just for ass over being cool with you. I have lost many buddies from girls and shit like that, but after a while the ass gets old and the girl starts saying what she does really think, and thats when he comes to his senses. Not much else to do but give it time, it sucks but there really isn't much of anything to do about it. Sorry that shit happend to you, but all girls do it, and any guy thats in the plus side with the girl will stay there usually, until it gets old and comes back. Good luck on that.