Life.

[Suislide]

everything sucks.

as some of you may know, my girlfriend of 8 months recently broke up with me. and before any of you cynics say ANYthing about 8 months being "paltry", or "not long enough to love someone", shut the fuck up before you even type it because you don't know how i felt. any comments like that left in this thread will be deleted.

anyways, she broke up with me after 8 months. and for what reason? "my feelings have changed. it's nothing you did, it was just time". time? leading up to it, everything was fine. sure we've had our rough patches in the past, but everything in my mind recently was a-ok. i didn't even see it coming, she gave me no indication. it's almost as if she broke it off with me based on feelings that she just developed a day before, which is a move i've made before and i'll admit it was stupid.

she also said "i'd still like to be friend". oh really? then why have you been avoiding me ever since?

to make it worse, she's already hanging out with another guy who she claims had "nothing to do with the break-up" and "is just a friend, i promise". bullshit. when you break up with me and then spend every single freaking night with this motherfucker, what the fuck do you want me to think? that it just naturally flowed that way? and the fact that she's even thinkinf of that within less then a week of breaking up with me goes to show how little i meant to her after all. i've wasted so much time and so much money on her...and for what? to be devastatingly heartbroken and dropped like a wet rag for some guy that she's known for all of a week? i loved her. genuinely loved her, but it doesn't really sound like the feelings were returned.

as if that weren't bad enough, the car i want to buy at the end of the week might sell at any second now, the guy who said would buy my 240SX is fucking me over and won't pay me any money whenever i go to talk to him, none of my friends are home this weekend to hang out with, and my family is gone as well so i all can do is sit around this FUCKING HOUSE BY MYSELF AND THINK OF HOW FUCKING MUCH MY LIFE SUCKS BECAUSE I HAVE NOTHING AND NO-ONE TO TAKE MY MIND OFF OF HER! FUCK!

and as if THAT weren't bad enough, i went into town to get dinner at McDonald's tonight, and who'd i run into? you guessed it. little miss muffet and her new beau. so i figured what the fuck and sat down to eat with them. i accidentally get ketchup on her shirt, and what does she do? she stands up in the middle of fucking McDonald's and starts SCREAMING at me at the top of her lungs about how much i fucked up the relationship and how i'm STILL doing stupid shit to her even after we're broken up.

i don't know what the symptoms of clinical depression are, but i'm sitting here at 12am on a summer saturday night, 18 years of age, when i should be out partying. i'm sitting here alone, in my house, on my computer, with an alcoholic drink in my hand. and i'm crying. sounds like depression to me.

i can't take this anymore.

[Hyatus]

Welcome to Adult life. Id say go for a drive but you've been drinking. Anyway, sucks not to have anyone to hang out with. Go put on a funny movie and get drunk.

[zebrathree]

"Shit happens, things change and no one has all the answers"

[BleedDodge]

You look pretty happy in your sig pic...

[NavyFord18]

Boy, real support here. Listen man, as a guy who has found love at the age of 18, I can say I have an idea of what your fealing. I hate to make thing's worse but she's most likely been cheating on you. I can't say I know of anything short of a killing that will make you feel any better. But don't that, that would be bad. I would say get drunk, but you already did that, which was VERY funny to read, BTW. I'd say your not in depression, just moaning. you can't change her feelings, say like the others said, pop in a funny movie and get wasted, it'll make time move faster. If you need someone to talk to, PM me anytime.

[Toksin]

Already said what I've needed on MSN. You know where to find me Brian.

[Suislide]

as if i wasn't already mad enough, the fucking server just ate the paragraph's-long reply that i just typed up.

anywho, to sum it up, running into her tonight made me feel even shittier. i'm not going to get shitfaced tonight by myself because that's really sad.

tomorrow looks up, as i am heading to see one of my old friends that i've known for 14 years (since grade 1), and we're going to go hang out with a couple of hot women, then go hit the bars and get shitfaced. he has a computer, so expect some rigorous pissposting.

[ghostguy6]

Originally Posted by NavyFord18

Boy, real support here. Listen man, as a guy who has found love at the age of 18, I can say I have an idea of what your fealing. I hate to make thing's worse but she's most likely been cheating on you. I can't say I know of anything short of a killing that will make you feel any better. But don't that, that would be bad. I would say get drunk, but you already did that, which was VERY funny to read, BTW. I'd say your not in depression, just moaning. you can't change her feelings, say like the others said, pop in a funny movie and get wasted, it'll make time move faster. If you need someone to talk to, PM me anytime.

Yeah he pretty well said it, your welcome to PM or Im me anytime as well

[EighteenVisions]

It's tough man. Life is most of the time. But, when it gets you down, you have to roll with the punches. This is just a temporary set-back in your life, and I'm willing to bet you aren't going to let it stop you. It may bother and hurt for a while, but that's to be expected with such a situation, so that can't be changed. But, don't let it ruin the days that you have. You can never get time back, and to spend it being pissed off at something, no matter how big or small, is a waste. I personally believe that fate plays a part in life, and, by my belief, if you were meant to be with this girl, things would have worked out.

I don't know man, you'll be fine, you and I both know this. Just take it as it comes, because if you try and do more it will just end up stressing you out more than you need to be.

[MagicRat]

Not too much I can add to these posts. I agree with them.
When I was your age I got dumped by several girls that I loved. It sucked; they were cruel, shallow, nasty (in a bad way) and I felt like you do.
But it gets better. Give it a bit of time, you will know that she's the loser, not you.
You can always PM me. You live in my home town anyways.

[YogsVR4]

The one piece of advice that you should take to heart is do not spend any time with this woman. Do not make an effort to see her. Do not make an effort to avoid her. The times you run into each other, be cordial but not chatty. You do not have to leave, but do not accept any invitation of any type from her.

Many women still like to exert control over ex boyfriends for as long as they can. Do not assist in this. The pain will pass. Every single adult male on this planet has been exactly where you are now. Take it from those of us who've been there (and several times for many). You may realize that part of your pain comes from the act of the losing something and that something may not be entirely the woman.

[l33tc4k30fd00m]

Originally Posted by Suislide

i don't know what the symptoms of clinical depression are, but i'm sitting here at 12am on a summer saturday night, 18 years of age, when i should be out partying. i'm sitting here alone, in my house, on my computer, with an alcoholic drink in my hand. and i'm crying. sounds like depression to me.

i can't take this anymore.

Wait? You're telling me that isn't normal? And I'm not kidding either.

...I shouldn't tell you that part of the reason I'm this way because of women. ~_~

EDIT: Oh and:

Originally Posted by Suislide

i accidentally get ketchup on her shirt, and what does she do? she stands up in the middle of fucking McDonald's and starts SCREAMING at me at the top of her lungs about how much i fucked up the relationship and how i'm STILL doing stupid shit to her even after we're broken up.

I would have done it again. Typical ex.

[Amish_kid]

Best thing I've noticed is ignoring the person, don't even talk to them if you see them. If they know it's bothering you they'll probably from my expirence keep trying to talk to you. Keep trying to be "friends" fuck friends cut her off. Get drunk, find someone else it'll really get under your skin if you can do the same thing they did.

[RSX-S777]

The real problem is not getting over this girl...it's not letting the bitterness carry over into your next relationship. Sometimes it's hard not to generalize after a woman you love screws you over- to feel like all women are treacherous bitches out to rip your heart from your chest...

[carnut]

Everyone has depression at one time or another, for many different reasons.

I thought I was heart broken when a high school girl only went out with me once......then another girl came along.....then the military thing.....then another girl........then overseas duty.......then another girl........got married.......then divorced........then a really hot woman......then got dumped after 5 months.......then another woman, nothing happened.......then a younger woman, again nothing happened.......now a really funny, nice, giving woman, someone I can see a future with.

Life is full of changes, live it up and be happy.