Bad Week

WickedNYCowboy · #1 07-13-2004, 09:18 PM

This week has been shitty. To start it off out of now where I become severly depressed and haven't slept in 4 days. Then while in the middle of a depression had a huge fight with my best friend. Then she calls to tell me that my first pony ever(he lived in her yard) died the last night. It sucked for a while till I realized he was better off he was old, fat, blind and deaf but was happy none the less. Then this morning I was super hyper active so I went to the gym and worked out for three hours. Then on my way to go see my horse natured called. So I got at a fimiliar exit went and did my business when I came out my car didn't f*ckin start. Turns out my damn start did it's business too. Then now a bunch a friends are mad at me because their friend who has CF(Cystic Fibrosis) started sling shitP(not literally) at me so I started slingin back. She got all upset but I dont care how sick you are you need to learn if you fling shit it is going to eventually come back. The best thing that can happen now is to get ran over or shot. Okay I am done ranting now.

MagicRat · #2 07-13-2004, 09:35 PM

Holy cow, thats rough. Sorry about the pony though. If you don't mind me asking, is there anything that you take/do for the depression?
Those highs and lows sound a bit like like manic depression to me.

WickedNYCowboy · #3 07-13-2004, 09:55 PM

Well it was time for him to go he was fat as cow, blind in both eyes, and deaf. Not to mention old as dirt. Its better he is in a happy happy place. But as far as drugs though i dont go to the drs unless there is severe bleeding or bones popping out. But my parents make me see some quack for add and she has me on an anti-depressent and add medicene. Its strattera to be exact. I stopped taking it cause it made things worse.

RSX-S777 · #4 07-13-2004, 09:56 PM

Sounds like bipolar disorder. When it rains it pours, eh?

WickedNYCowboy · #5 07-13-2004, 10:00 PM

Yep sure does.

RSX-S777 · #6 07-13-2004, 10:03 PM

You find that "right girl" yet WC? It's amazing how helpful a caring female ear can be. Also, sex is very therapeutic....

MagicRat · #7 07-13-2004, 10:16 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by RSX-S777

Sounds like bipolar disorder. When it rains it pours, eh?

Bipolar is what I was thinking of, as manic depression is an obsolete term.
Sometimes, if the medication is wrong, or is not working its time for an adjustment, or change. There are many alternatives, and what works for others, (or what the quack says should work) may not be right.
I got tired of my ups and downs some years ago and managed to get the edge taken off them.
Of course, posting to total strangers helps too.

WickedNYCowboy · #8 07-13-2004, 10:32 PM

Yeah I did find the right girl. I thought it would be awsome if because I was going to be going to missippi for the summer. I met her on the side of a freeway her stock trailer(loaded) had a flat and I stopped to help her. But as usual a change in plans happen to keep back in town and she really doesn't care and neither do I. But right now its best we don't speak cause she is a REAL worrier. I am going to see a shrink next week. Hopefully I can convince him that I need the change. I usually go once a month but may start going once a week to see if it helps.

WickedNYCowboy · #9 07-14-2004, 04:14 PM

I had a serious mental breakdown and my best friend came over and slept for 12 hours straight. I feel better today. As to the right girl not too sure right now. She is a great girl we haven't been going out that long and when we started officialy "going out" it was just before this. She just has a case of bad timing. I am going to talk to a good friend see what she can do. I had a VERY good friend email her and tell her what is going on and exactly how bad I was. I flipped out on her last night and she was already mad about something.

RSX-S777 · #10 07-15-2004, 08:38 AM

uh-oh

WickedNYCowboy · #11 07-15-2004, 12:43 PM

I feel even better today. I took the camaro w/ supercharger that is really rigged. Made my own mounting plates for eaton out of a an f150 ligthenting. Yeah I got a smile from ear to ear. I just need a different cam because I want the car to sound nice too.

WickedNYCowboy · #12 07-17-2004, 11:39 PM

I thought it was getting better. I was talking to a friend who I liked alot. Since this other chick didn't work out and I knew this friend really liked me. So we were talking about talking it to the next level. Well I had to step away and her phone ringed. Well I come back and I am about to ask her start talking and she interupts and says yeah me and this guy are going out now. How many times in one week can a guy get shit(not literally) on? I know she like started crying and stuff. I was like wtf. 5 mintues ago you said you weren't going to say yes if he asked. The worst part is I can't find my lisence and can't drive without it. Besides I cant drive anyways I got stiches from protecting my best friend and the guy messing with her was too much of a bitch to talk or fight so he pulled a knife and cut my legs and face. The one time i didnt wear pants i got cut the shit out of. I have no idea what this world is coming to. I didn't even fight back well because I really couldn't between my best friend and a few other friends wouldn't let me. But oh well life's a bitch.... Just I wanna kill somebody. I could go out but my best friend is like 1 hour and 45 minutes away and she'd come out but I feel bad. Okay I am done ranting, rambling, and making myself look like an ass.

WickedNYCowboy · #13 07-19-2004, 12:51 AM

Okay now that I am no longer hung over. I went to a party drank an insane amount got into a fight and feel completely better. I don't know why beating the crap out someone while piss ass drunk is so relieving. But I need to thank those who responded and offered their support. You guys really stepped out of your way for a newbie and I really appreciate it. Thanks alot!

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