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Ace$nyper · #1 02-24-2004, 09:54 PM

OK you all know me and for those who don't i'm tough as nails shit talking and always keep my personal life to me. Well right now i'm going to open up i'm just so worried right now i'm really flipped out and ask you all for your ear.
OK whats going on is my friend whos my life shes truly my angel is very sick and they dont know whats wrong with her. I try to look up and say hey your going to be ok but deep inside i'm so freaked out. I can't lose her shes the only one in this world whos so important to me. I can't let her know i'm scared cause i'm there for her. I gotta hold her hand tell her she'll be ok.
As a few of you know I lost my first love in this world I can't go through it again. I just don't think I can take it again. If I lose her my life would be pointless I barly made it through losing 1 girl dear lord I can't bury 2.
Please all you i beg your to pray for my friends health. And if anyone can maybe give me an idea of how to stay chilled out cause I need to. I have to help her.

mycivic · #2 02-24-2004, 10:02 PM

My prayers are with you and your friend. I hope she gets well soon. Just be there for her by her side. You being by her side alone can mean so much to her.

jon@af · #3 02-24-2004, 10:26 PM

Sorry to hear that Max, I'll keep her in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck.

97civiclx · #4 02-24-2004, 10:57 PM

my prayers are with you. i am reallly sorry man

Toksin · #5 02-24-2004, 11:05 PM

You're in my thoughts Max. If I may, what is wrong with her?

Steel · #6 02-24-2004, 11:28 PM

Sorry ot hear man

my prayers are with the both of you. Don't give up on hope!

Mediocrity · #7 02-24-2004, 11:29 PM

Keep hope... just keep hope.

craigcully · #8 02-24-2004, 11:50 PM

Sorry to hear about that man... my prayers are with you. Maintain positivity and keep your head up, we are all here to support you.

ShortyDTP · #9 02-25-2004, 12:19 AM

I am so sorry max, i am praying for both of you , and don't give up , we are with you.!

darkness · #10 02-25-2004, 04:24 AM

dude, thoughts with you.

just keep being there for her. theres probably not much else you can do.

And I don't want to sound like a cynic, but prepare for things to be hard. I know you probably don't want to here it, but you've got to be prepared.

You can't destroy yourself mentally over this. It won't help you and won't help her either. Remember your life will go on,

I don't know what else I can say. I hope it makes sense. I hope it works out.

Ace$nyper · #11 02-25-2004, 09:05 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Toksin

You're in my thoughts Max. If I may, what is wrong with her?

well part of the problem is not sure. She was told might be blood in her lungs and thats a real bad thing. Her lungs are hurting her shes so young and not a smoker I really dont understand whats going on.
Darkness. Trust me man I know what you mean I've had to go through this before its brutal I just dont know if I can do it again nearly broke me the first time
But thank you all so much your kind words and good wishes really help me. I'll make sure to keep you updated. Hopefully with great news.

goat_launcher · #12 02-25-2004, 09:27 AM

I would say that you are in my prayers but God usually doesn't listen to me.

All I can say is spend as much time as possible with her, and tell her everything, all of your thoughts on the time you spent together while in this lifetime. Don't hold anything back, and you won't have any regrets.

TexasF355F1 · #13 02-25-2004, 11:13 AM

I am so sorry to hear that Ace. My prayers are with you. I pray for the best. Best wishes.

Ace$nyper · #14 02-25-2004, 05:19 PM

OK heres the crappy update. Well shes not feeling any better its not her lungs shes going for more tests on friday. What they think it is is her heart they think its going out. God its not fair just isnt!
Thank you all so much for your kind words and prayers It means so much to me! I really hope I can get you guys some good news soon. I really can't take this its killing me.
If it comes down to it i really would give her my heart and i'm not just saying that either i know damn well what it means for me but shes just too important for me to lose.
Shes so brave telling me not to worry and telling me that she doesn't mind shes looking forward to getting that job she filled out with god as an angel. I really love her i can't lose her. I'm breaking apart here! FUCK FUCK FUCK ok just needed to yell.

mycivic · #15 02-25-2004, 05:23 PM

I know how you feel...

I was once in a similar situation when my friend also died for a reason I'm going to keep to myself for now.

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