Right now its 2:42am and it's New Years Eve .....yea

Tonite ...well actually 30 mins ago I just ended something that could have been great and bad . I Fell really hard for this girl ...like HARD and I don't know why I guess it was something differant about her and now I feel empty inside . The times and the moments that I spent with her were great ... I felt like I was up in the sky ... I was crazy about her but things that she did hurt me alot

things that hurt so much that I couldn't be with her no more b/c of them . I'm just really really sad and empty now ...I have no one to look forward to seeing after a stressful day no one to cuddle with no one to put a

on my face when its been a long day . We were basically two differant people ...we did differant things we had differant friends and she just got out of a serious relationship not too long ago . Half of me saids that what I'm doing is the best for me and that I am doing the right thing but the other half tells me that I want to be with her ....But theres just too much pain and frustration that I can't handle

. I took a chance to see if things would work out but obviously things didn't and I just hope that I don't regret this b/c I really cared about this girl alot ....more than she'll ever know . It's kind of weird that I haven't shed a tear but I feel like I want to but I also want to be strong and move on ...which is what I am doing ....Now I shall shed my tear