Ready To Explode With Anger@life!!!

[Kreal]

I'm FREAKIN fed up with my life. All has been decent up until now, I just can't stand it anymore. The people around me, the things around me, hell, even myself! Can't take it.

First off, I'm 17 - I haven't got a steady job yet, I'm 5'9, 180lbs. I HAD an awesome car, yes, keyword is HAD. I sold my '77 Fury Custom Cruiser, sold all of my sword/knives/guns I had been collecting for years, and bought a car off of ebay in November - a car I loved, and I think loved me back.

An 87 StarQuest. Silver on Red Leather, absolutly beautiful car, had EVERYthing power, was a turbo, intercooled..200hp stock..manual trans.. was awesome, the best part was that NO one had one like it.

I worked for a construction company, and for my dad's mechanics shop. I had been dating a girl named Jess off-and-on for about 2 years now. I'm not very looking because I'm a bit over-weight, I don't go out much, pushed away all of my friends, and am quite anti-social, not by choice, but I enjoy keepings things to myself.

I'm a cool guy to get along with, I'll help anyone out of a tight situation, lend someone money, etc. I'll listen to people's problems, and confront those who are wrong. I'm not afraid to confront someone, or of a fight, because I know I can stand my ground, but I don't go around picking fights either. I'm not an asshole.

I met Jess through a friend of mine, she was his girlfriend. I 'stole' her from him, and me & him haven't been friends since. Resulting in 2 fights in which he was all talk & left with plenty of bruises, courtesy of me. Well, whenever me & jess have a fight, she runs to him, and my other ex-friends.

This mother's day, my brakes failed on my car, I rolled a stop sign, and was T boned by a pt cruiser going 60mph. Both cars totalled, both drivers alright. She had a broken wrist & pelvis, I had 2 broken ribs, and some bruises. I did not have full insurance to cover me, only the damage I did to her car - I also got a ticket, making that 2 befor 18 (suspension 90 days by law)..

So, I'm left with a car in the shape of a C, a car I loved.. I must part it out, get a beater ride, and use that until I can afford another Starquest in a few years. SUCKS.

Well, me & Jess have been fighting off and on, over her thinking I am cheating, and her REALLY cheating.. I have always forgiven her, I bought her plenty of gifts, was there when she needed me, and I think a great boyfriend. WRONG. She likes guys with cool cars, who dress like Eminem, include the word YO after every sentance, and have the brain span of a 5yr old.

She kept yelling at me to change my aol profile to put her name in it..I finally did, and she didn;t do the same - I asked her ' dont know how to change my profile ' BS, you've been doing it for over a year. So, when I got home today, I IMed her under a fake screen name, pretended to be some kid who liked her, then asked for her number - she quickly gave & insisted she was single. I faked my voice, and she spoke most of the time - she said some horrible crap about me.. very saddening to hear..

This is the same girl I lent $1600 to when she wanted to buy a car, I only accepted $1200 back, and allowed her to keep the rest. I bought her an $600 ring, 27 lava lamps, tons of jewelry, other gifts, dinner, movies..etc. Now, I'm POOR..lol..

I was there when her grandpa died, I defended her infront of her parents, etc. I got in several fights with other kids who decided they wanted to 'hit' her friends...boys hitting girls...

I have done a lot for her - and now she talks about me..horrible crap..

Anyways, I call her on my cell..she clicks over ' hey im talkin to my grandma hold on' Yeah..wonder how many other times she has lied to me.

I ask her calmly why she did this..she then screamed at me claiming I am a SON OF A B for putting her on the spot like that. She then said 'were over and I'm going out with some guys tonight ' She hung up.

I didn't even bother calling back. Not sure what to do. I mean, I KNOW I can live without her, and can always recouperate a car..but..its just..why all of this, RIGHT now?

- Paul

Ty for listening, I appreciate it.,

[YogsVR4]

Sorry to hear all thats gone one. But I can say, welcome to life. Its going to have these things and you'll grow from them.

[Amish_kid]

Poor car man, and about her she is a "Ho" plain and simple by the sounds of it, I think you've been taken for a ride courtesy of her.

[2strokebloke]

So you only had liability on your car??? I have liability on my $600 toyota, because if it get's totalled it's only $600 down the drain -




Anyway, sometimes girl"friends" gotta get whacked!

[Toksin]

Hmm

Sorry to hear that dude. Firsly, ditch the bitch,you'll be better off without her.

After that things will look up.

[HogieGT-R]

definately get rid of that bitch....all she wanted was dick....things will look up eventually

[joedirt76]

You may feel like you loved that chick Jess. But she clearly didnt love you back, it will be hard to let go at first, but there is someone out there that will treat you right. So just let go, and with time your heart will heal man, I know..Ive been there..but I also know that it gets better cause Im with the best girl ever, we've been together for two years steady. So just keep your head up, and dont let some chick get you down.

[TURBO_EK4]

Keep your head up kid, dont let these girls get you down, they come and they go, soon youll find someone that you truly love and loves you back, youre still young and got lots of time to play the field. I would also suggest you find a hobby just to get your mind of things. Hope this helps a little. Also remember "That wich does not kill you,only makes you stonger."

Hope you feel better.




Romeo.

[Sluttypatton]

Hey, I feel for you, I have been through a lot of what your describing (lost my licence for a year, lost the girl I loved, lost many of my friends as a result of the girl I loved). Tough it out, things get better, it takes a while, but they do. About her...I know you love her, but she isn't treating you with the proper respect, find someone better...ask your friend if (the one who you stole her from) if he accepts refunds, and give her back. I know you loved your car too, but remember to keep things in perspective, it's just a car...you will get another. Cars come and go, and they are meant to be driven...somethimes crashing is the result of that, don't sweat it. As for the suspension, I am not sure about the laws where you live, but where I live I was able to get my licence back early by writing the department of motor vehicles with a letter explaining why I needed it. These letters are more effective if you get someone else to write them (mom, boss, teacher). And for the ticket, if you haven't already payed it...DISPUTE IT, it doesn't matter if you have grounds or not, it takes a LONG time to get to court and by that time the ticket may be dismissed, or the officer may not even show up. Things will get better.

[integra818]

:hehe: Now imagine you were'nt alowed to drive, had no girlfriend and could'nt get one, had bad grades, were'nt allowed to get a job... and it's my world. Wierd that I'm saying this but I'd trade my life for yours anytime.

Aright man, here's how it goes... I don't know you at all so I'm not gonna bullshit you just so I won't hurt your feelings, so I'm tellin you this honestly, stop feeling so sorry for yourself and do something about it. It seems like this girl had you by the nut-sack. Ditch that girl. Too attached to her? Leave her, be sad for a month and everything will be better afterwards, if you stay with her, who knows how long this torture will go on.

Crashed the car? Work and get another one, don't stand there and feel bad that you don't have a car, it'll be better as soon as you get another one.

If you're standing in the middle of a field and you have alot of $hit bieng thrown at you, do you just stand there wondering why it's bieng thrown or do you get out of the way??? Standing there will make you sad, runnin out of the way will make it better. Whatever bad thing that happens to you, you let it get to you, just let it pass you by you and you'll feel much better afterwards. Girl gettin anoying? leave her, that simple.

You're too soft, suck it up and go on with your life passing by and ignoring whatever you don't like. Believe it or not, your life is better than mine. Your problems are'nt gonna change if YOU don't change them.

Peace out, and good luck with everything.

[speediva]

Girls are bitches, plain and simple. She is playing games, and one day she will get what she has "earned". Get as far away from her as you can. It's good for you. Besides, you're about as tall as me, and you're not that "overweight" so don't give me that garbage. If you don't like how you look, see what you can do to change it. If you don't mind it so much, then so be it. You can do much better.

Your car, okay.... now THAT's something to be upset about, but you can't help your brakes going out on you. You can't. Mine don't work right now, so I know how shitty that must have felt. You'll get your license back. You'll get a car. Wait your turn. Good things can and will happen.

[boingo82]

First, though it's been said, the girl was using you. You sound like a wonderful person and you deserve so much better. It sounds to me like you put up with too much of her b.s. - and you need to stand up for yourself so your next relationship will be more equal.

The brakes thing can't be helped - at least know that nobody was seriously hurt, and cars can be replaced. You may want full coverage on your next car for peace of mind - I had it on my 1991 Sentra so I could sleep at night.

I have a theory about relationships: We all have to endure at least one really, really bad one, so we'll know and appreciate a good one when we find it.

Rest assured that things have a way of working themselves out. For now, focus on saving up to get yourself a new car - I bet you find one you fall even more in love with - and get involved in some clubs or organizations you're interested in. Chances are you'll meet someone with similar interests - and better yet, you'll have an active social life, so you'll have more confidence and self-esteem. That can only make you more attractive to the ladies. Best of luck.

[Diesel2NR]

Originally posted by integra818
:hehe: Now imagine you were'nt alowed to drive, had no girlfriend and could'nt get one, had bad grades, were'nt allowed to get a job... and it's my world. Wierd that I'm saying this but I'd trade my life for yours anytime.

Aright man, here's how it goes... I don't know you at all so I'm not gonna bullshit you just so I won't hurt your feelings, so I'm tellin you this honestly, stop feeling so sorry for yourself and do something about it. It seems like this girl had you by the nut-sack. Ditch that girl. Too attached to her? Leave her, be sad for a month and everything will be better afterwards, if you stay with her, who knows how long this torture will go on.

Crashed the car? Work and get another one, don't stand there and feel bad that you don't have a car, it'll be better as soon as you get another one.

If you're standing in the middle of a field and you have alot of $hit bieng thrown at you, do you just stand there wondering why it's bieng thrown or do you get out of the way??? Standing there will make you sad, runnin out of the way will make it better. Whatever bad thing that happens to you, you let it get to you, just let it pass you by you and you'll feel much better afterwards. Girl gettin anoying? leave her, that simple.

You're too soft, suck it up and go on with your life passing by and ignoring whatever you don't like. Believe it or not, your life is better than mine. Your problems are'nt gonna change if YOU don't change them.

Peace out, and good luck with everything.

You were just crying about your problems in your own thread. Until you have a car or a girl you really car about, you couldn't understand how it'd be to lose them. You won't understand until you've lost it for yourself. And your outlook is really shitty, so I wouldn't be giving advice to others on having a "shitty life".

Kreal, keep your head up and stay in the game. You just had a setback. In 90 days, you'll get your license back. In your spare time right now, you'll be able to work a little more and not have to pay gas and insureance, so you might have enough when it's over with to get another car. Look on the bright side and stare adversity in the face. You can make it. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Remember that.

[integra818]

Originally posted by Diesel2NR


You were just crying about your problems in your own thread. Until you have a car or a girl you really car about, you couldn't understand how it'd be to lose them. You won't understand until you've lost it for yourself. And your outlook is really shitty, so I wouldn't be giving advice to others on having a "shitty life".

My problem in my thread was that my day was to repetative. How do you know I hav'nt had a girlfrined and lost her? Maybe I hav'nt crashed a car that I like so much, but I really like the car that my dad baught for me and it's drivin me crazy becasue I'm not allowed to drive my own car.
About the girl, maybe his position is worse than mine right now, but I've went through that girl-problem too and I do know what it feels like. I learned how to forget about her and let her go.
My outlook is really shitty?... that's your opinion, I don't blame you.