What would it take.

[kris]

Just for the record. I am not contemplating suicide. So to those who messaged me about it, thanks, but it's not needed. :silly2:

I was just thinking one day, after hearing a friend of the family passed away from his attempt at suicide. What caused him to do it? He was in his 60's, had lived what seemed to many, a great and wonderful life. He was healthy, and had many years ahead of him. But for some reason he just cracked. We will never know why, but he did. So that got me thinking. What would cause me to just break down. What would make me feel like I need to end my life. Losing a loved one to death or sickness, or breaking up with a girlfriend, those are all hard things in life. But they are not so hard that I feel I should end my life. I have thought about this quite a bit, and the only thing that I can think of, would be if I had a very long, drawn out physical illness. Maybe one like what gdalton talked about. Even something like losing the use of my legs wouldnt cause me to. But something very bad. Something that would make me pretty much be bed ridden for the rest of my life. Where I would rely on someone else for everything from eating, to wiping the drool from the corner of my mouth. I feel I would want to end my life then. Rather than spend my remainin years suffering, and putting the people I care about through that much hurt, watching me waste away. But then, you never know. I have never been faced with that situation. So things could change if I were ever faced with that. I just hope and pray I will never have to make that decision.

[speediva]

I've dealt with so many suicidal friends ever since Middle School. I was talking my friend out of putting a knife to her wrist at age 11. I wasn't even allowed to call my friend when at age 13 she was put into a hospital for 2 weeks. I swear it is almost my calling to bring people back into reality at times...

At several points in my life I have wondered just what the rush is. I tried cutting myself because I couldn't imagine what it was that she felt. I envisioned myself driving off a bridge (as I was crossing it) not more than a month ago because I was mad at myself for not eating. (I'm usually fine, but some things can and will send me into depression)

It is the "easy" way out of problems. But it takes serious guts to actually follow through. I often wonder if all those school shootings weren't more like suicide attempts that started off wrong, and thus became outward killings.

Sorry for the "sob fest"... Reading poetry and then finding topics like these aren't always good combinations...

But on a somewhat lighter note:

Dorothy Parker--Re'sume'
Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

[1989 DX R]

Last August, a girl shot her brains out in the middle school near my place. Took a gun into the bathroom, and pulled the trigger. She was 13. Thats not something that happens everyday even in bad places.