Is that the Excel knife handle I spot on your desk? This is the same knife I use and love. I use it to chuck up drill bits, too, so that I have two pin vises.
Don't worry. I have destroyed my early models because I have advanced so much that they seem like a joke...however they weren't even painted, so you have a head start on me there! You WILL get better and better. It just takes practice, like any other hobby or talent, patience as has been emphasized, and the support and knowledge of others, which you will find here! Good luck and hope to see lots more of you as you continue this hobby. By the way congratulations on your upcoming child!
Alex