New View on life...

... hey everyone, well im here once again to let it out.. well what ever I can atleast. Well here goes, as of now I am at a cross roads in life. Recent events have caused me to be angered at the world and everything. PPL, so called friends have taken advantage of me enough. I am not a fool to be taken advantage of and fogotten, a good deed a helpfull one, a sincear one that is what im all about. But when your a person that tries their hardest to help everyone around you... (why?? because you can) and yet everything around you never seems to go in the right direction. I ask my self how much is it gona take befor you crack. How much bull shit, the lies, the betral... I try very hard to keep a balence in my life because of all the bad around me i try to do good n even it out. But when your kindness is taken advantage of and the dedt not repaied what do you do.

One example of the stupidity of life. momma always told me to dont lend money to friends...:bloated: I have more money now then i have every had in my entire life. More then my friends in my life, I help a once concidered close friend with his financial problems. Helped him even got involved, you can say i practicaly saved his life. In the end i did a good deed and helped a friend out with his problems. 7 months later i have turned his life around from a 2bit wanna be scamin monky joke of a buissness man, to a almost straght and narrow working to a better day kinda guy... But wheres my help when i need it, Besides the fact that he owes me an extreamly large sum of money which i am on the verge or getting violent about. He is not taking responcibility about anything;
OPTION 1) make some calls have his arss beat and my money returned.. OPTION 2) take him to court and sue his ass to hell...

that shows to tell you that you cant trust anyone but your self... the is the sorry truth i am beginning to believe. With he constant quest for a balence in my life, i get screwed again this sunday. With my life on the line and my car with a big hole in it, a the tab lefted for me to pay. I have had just about enough. Why be nice and give a shit about others when ppl dont give a shit about you. Society today have slum to their lowest... I would hate to become one of them.

SUNDAY 12:30 am
after comfronting a friend who just had his heart shatered and on the verge of depression again, i head home so i can wake up early to go to class in 6 hours for a midterm. Following the speed limmit i exited the off ramp off the freeway, when out of the blue a speeding mothing fucker takes the offramp 30mph turn at 80mph+ hiting a bump on the road causeing him to jump onto the back of my car nearly hitting my head if i had not swerved. Anyways he lands in from of my car with a crash, and his pasengerside rear wheel with suspension falls right off in front of me causeing him to spin outa control, 360 like 3 times before crashing into the wall. WIth out even a pause he backs up and takes off like a beheaded chicken. With sparks and fire higher then the car he manages through some kinda of miricle gets away from me, stunded at the sight of the fiascal. I tried to go after him but non the less my mind was not capable to grasp the events that had happonded so quickly soon enough he had turned the corner and was gone from my sight. The police was of ZERO help in locating a car that had only 3 wheels. So with that i am left with a big hole in my car, minor back aches, and the tab on repairing my car since i dont have hit and run insurence.... WHAT A BITCH LIFE IS...

sorry everyone u know how it is the server is buzy and u have to keep resending till it goes through... humm wonder how i sent it so many times... anyways sorry for the spam...

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I, too, have recently reached the crossroads. I don't want to become an az-hole like everyone else but sometimes it seems like the only way : (

My avatar used to be Anakin Skywalker, transforming into Darth Vader... to illustrate how life has kinda fugged me over. If it wasn't for my mom who constantly reminds me of God's plan in life, I'd totally be toting a shotgun around on my Harley Davidson and just flipping off the world.

The police are corrupt.

The people are corrupt.

The church is corrupt.

The government is corrupt.

What is an honest man to do? It seems that just to get by these days we are forced to break the laws.

When I get to the edge and am about to say "Fugg you all" and go on a giant shooting spree, I try to go to church but even there they are interested in getting my money or pounding me with a bible until I become their bish.

Fear is the path to the Dark Side

There ya go. You said it your self. Don't be afraid to pick yourself up after you fall. I don't give a shit about how far you fell. Pick your ass up and get on with what's important. Be strong and it'll all turn around. I promise...:cool:

hey everyone well its gona cost over a grand to fix the dam hole in my car dam that sux messed up my lights too have to put my stock back on now ohh well... this sux

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I hear you man, life is a bitch... like Pikachoo said, stay strong it will all work out... somehow...

-Grendel

I too have come to this crossroads. I have learned that to help is to not be above others, but to not let yourself go under. I have also found sometimes its better to let stuff go, nomater how big it is, if its a good enough friend. I also have found that the one thing I wanted more than anything in life, I shall never have, so I let that go, if I cant have it, why dwell (sp) on it? Sometimes we have to put it all into perspective and look for something that makes us happy, and go for that. Believe me, i've been betrayed, hurt, stabed in the back, lied to, cheated etc etc by those closes to me pleanty of times. Theres only 1 person in my life who hasnt hurt me, or betrayed me and she lives across the country. Money comes, and it goes, so do cars. People will always be just that, people, always worried about themselves, even if their goal is always to help others, there will be a point where they worry about them selves most.

If you find something you enjoy, truly enjoy which makes you have a smile on your face for days on end, ,then go for it. I have found for me this is cars, friends have betrayed me too many times, loves shattered my heart, works ravaged my body, cars break, but fixing them even is fun for me.

I hope this helps, I assume it may not, but if not, you could always find me rollin in LB :bandit: Maby I could make more sence then lol

Good luck with your car, and your friend

well i know what i have to do but sux doesnt it. ohh well my car is driveable but it sux i intended to give the car to my lil sis in September now i have to spend money to fix it up what a pain... well the story with my socall friend just got even stranger... guess what the lil SOB did...:rolleyes: :rolleyes: HE WENT AND BAUGHT HIM SELF A NEW FREAKEN CAR!!!

Okay this is realy pissing me off he owes me over 6grand, instead of paying me back he gives me excuses about his bank being frozen and he cant get my money out... then he goes and buys him self a 97-98 4door 'teg leather everything blah blah blah... 12 thousand people!!!! you hear that 12 fuken thousand dollars. He said his mom helped him with his down payment and all that mumbo jumbo... okay calming down............
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... humm so what am i supose to believe... ohhh well giveing him the benifit or the doubt he still owes me 6grand... whiles hes rideing in his new leather seats n car, i get a big hole in my ride who do i pass the bill to :mad: :mad: gerrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!

Well this is how life treats you for being too dam considerat of others, what ever happond to karma i should be glowing with goodness j/k... :bloated: well to stop my rant.. i will continue working for a better day just aftershocks from a horrible year thats it... nothing to get all worked up about, a purty girl is bringing you lunch today be happy n ask her to dinner forget bout the stupidity for one nite.... ohhh my car :(

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i hate to say this but its the state of the world we live in now. if you want something done properly you gotta do it yourself. police etc. will mess you about for ever whilst having no intention of ever sorting it. the only way you will ever sort it is to take it into you're own hands, just be warned that fate would have the cops on ur ass as soon as you did (typical:rolleyes: :rolleyes: )