I hate everbody/I hate myself.

[Sean]

Originally Posted by Jet-Lee

I think better typing, I don't know why. In person, my words get going faster than my mouth. Maybe thats the problem.

I know what that's like. Most of the time when I'm speaking I have problems with pacing. I typically pause while I'm communicating; I like to review what I've written or said and clarify it. It's useful while writing but is a burden while speaking. I had to restruct this paragraph a few times before I was satisfied with it.

[WickedNYCowboy]

I used to feel the same way. But I hang out with a small group of people with my best friend since the age of 10. I am also not a man of many words. I mostly spend my time listening and then coming up with a couple witty responses. Someone mentioned rebuilding/reconstructing self esteem, and etc is truely correct. It will not happen all at once. It will take weeks,months, maybe even years.

[2.2 Straight six]

i stick to a fairly small tight group of friends, mostly people that know me well. i'm sort of xenophobic...i mean i dont really feel comfortable sometimes in places with lots of people. and im a nervous, paranoid person too. people make me nervous. i dont mind people i dont know talking to me.

when i was in miami last week, i was just sitting outside doing my drawing an stuff, near near the beach in south beach (behind the hotels, like ritz-carlton if you know the area) i was sitting on the wall thing, an i'm there for a while an this girl sits down further up. she was about 10-15 feet away from me. she was facing towards me, just sitting an minding her own business. but cos she was facing me it made me kinda nervous, that an she was quite attractive and i felt nervous but i forced myself to stay put.

i felt nervous because i cant really handle people either staring at me, or looking over at me when i cant tell if they're staring at me or not.

now, usually the spiky hair of mine drives people away, but not her. she wandered off an washed her hands in the beach shower then just came an sat down next to me an started talking to me.

it's wierd cos she made me nervous cos i thought she was staring at me but then when she was talking to me i didnt feel uncomfortable at all.

i dont mind anyone talking to me usually, people always ask me for directions an stuff, or if im sitting somewhere it's not unusual for people to just come an talk to me.

[kicker1_solo]

Originally Posted by CivicSlayr

Ditto. I hate talking with people face to face. I never call anyone, i text. I hate when you'r hanhing out with your friends and there is nothin to talk about. Its like king of the hill, all of us standing around drawin closer to death sayin "yep". Talking is so overated.

Ha, you just described me perfectly!