mood swings and emotional break downs

[ghostguy6]

Ok lately ive been kinda depressed for various reasons. So last night Im on msn and 6 people who I am close to all sign in within 5 minutes of eachother. All 6 people start talking to me and have something bad to tell me. Two of them are mad at me because i still talk to my ex g/f and they think something is going on between me and her, at this point I still dont totally understand why then are mad. My best friend comes on starts calling me a fucking asshole and shit like that and blocks me, he wont answer his phone and i have know fucking clue whats going on. One of them tell me she is moving away and I will most likely never see her again. One of them tells me he joined the armed forces and is being shipped out to Kandahar on monday, he said he needed to escape the hell that is his life. I didnt even know he had joined the army and had completed boot, all i knew was he was thinking of joining the reserves The last one was someone I have known since third grade, she was four month pregnant and really excited about having a baby, she tells me the father beat her last week and she lost the baby because of it. So after hearing all this bad news with half an hour I totally freak out. i got in my car and drove as fast as i could, I just couldnt handle all that shit! once i got on the hiway i floored it! i didnt slow down until i felt the car shaking up really bad, i looked at the speedo and i realized i was doing 172 Km/h in an 80 zone. I didnt even care that i was going that fast so I kept going for a few more minutes until the temp light comes on, i pulled over and let the car cool down for about an hour, this guy pulls over and asks me if i needed any help and i totally snapped at him!! he just backed away slowly with a scared look an his face. well anyways i deside if im driving that fast and i know if something did happen i wouldnt be able to hande the car maybe its time i get out of the car, so i drive to a park in the river valley, its a bad neiborhood after dark, kinda like central park in NYC. I deside to walk though it anyway because i need to cool off and to be totally honest I really didnt give a shit what happened to me, i mean it is gang territory. So im walking though the park and i meet a small group of gang bangers, only 3, and they start shit, and i kicked their asses! Hell one of those fuckers even pulled a knife on me and i didnt care, all i could think about was hurting that bastard! Now that I think about it, it was really stupid to take a guy with a knife bare handed, but i got away with only a small cut on the arm, lucky me. Anyways i keep walking after they ran away, I got to the river and sat there just staring at the water. At that point everything his me, everything bad that has happened hit at once, i had a total break down i know guys arent supposed to cry but i just sat there crying, thinking about everything, I felt so bad for myself. I sat there until i was time to go to work and i got know idea what to do now.

[psychobadboy]

Damn, that's extremely harsh man. Lots of stuff happened to you all at once, and a lot of it with no explaination whatsoever. Actually, guys aren't supposed to cry for stupid stuff...I wouldn't concider this stupid. This is the stress relief forum...glad you're venting away and glad you didn't get more seriously hurt by the knife-wielding guy.

[YogsVR4]

Sorry to hear that you got all that dumped on you.

[ghostguy6]

Originally Posted by psychobadboy

Damn, that's extremely harsh man. Lots of stuff happened to you all at once, and a lot of it with no explaination whatsoever. Actually, guys aren't supposed to cry for stupid stuff...I wouldn't concider this stupid. This is the stress relief forum...glad you're venting away and glad you didn't get more seriously hurt by the knife-wielding guy.

I wish I new why all this stuff happened, at least they could have told my why they were pissed off at me, ok me talking to my ex. I have a little bit of an idea, but as to why my friend freaked out at me i have no fucking clue! One of the things that scares the hell out of me is , I honestly think I had it in me to kill that guy I wish I could find that guy that stopped to see if i was ok on the hiway, I want to tell him Im sorry, I dont think Ive ever seen anyone that scared in my life

[kittedb18bt]

holy cow! hope everything works out. yes, it is ok to cry as stated earlier.
i would have loved to see the incident with the gang bangers.

[Chevy_girl00]

It is totally okay for guys to cry. It's a way of releasing pent up feelings, and if you don't then it's not good for you. I am so sorry that you had to get all that bad news... especially all at once. I have had days like that too, and it's like all you want to do is just make it all go away but nothing you can do will make you forget about it. It feels like a huge cloud is lingering over you, or a net is pulling you down. Again, Im sorry, and if you ever need to talk u can email or pm me.

-Candice

[Shortbus]

My ex-wife caused me to cry a few times I was embarrassed about it but it sure felt good to let it out.

Hope things look up for you.

[ghostguy6]

I cant say it felt good to cry, shit i havent cried in at least 6 years, Ive been to funerals and i couldnt even cry, I sat there staring at the water for hours and i dont know why. Man Im messed up.

[SeXy_AnGeL]

Originally Posted by ghostguy6

I cant say it felt good to cry, shit i havent cried in at least 6 years, Ive been to funerals and i couldnt even cry, I sat there staring at the water for hours and i dont know why. Man Im messed up.

You're not messed up....you just need some help. I can help I hope. I know I haven't been very good help to anyone for a lil while now but I can help you even though I can't help myself. It'll all work out. Just talk to someone, like me, and let it out. I want to help you, if you'll let me.

[ghostguy6]

Sorry for bring up an old post but i dont feel like starting a new one. "Two of them are mad at me because i still talk to my ex g/f and they think something is going on between me and her, at this point I still dont totally understand why then are mad." these two just came to my house and threatened be because my ex. gave me her cell phone# im not really to worried about this, I accidentally hit the wrong button on my cell and i hung up on a really important phone call with a really good friend and now i think she is mad at me
Kate you have been great help through everything i have been through and i wouldnt trade your help for anything else

[twospirits]

is an understatement. If they act like that now can you imagine if it gets serious. Run while you still can. As for the important phone call, call her back and explain it was a mistake you hanged up.

[SeXy_AnGeL]

Originally Posted by ghostguy6

Sorry for bring up an old post but i dont feel like starting a new one. "Two of them are mad at me because i still talk to my ex g/f and they think something is going on between me and her, at this point I still dont totally understand why then are mad." these two just came to my house and threatened be because my ex. gave me her cell phone# im not really to worried about this, I accidentally hit the wrong button on my cell and i hung up on a really important phone call with a really good friend and now i think she is mad at me

she isn't mad at you. she has no reason to be mad at you. she's probably too messed up to even comprehend anything that she's done all day.....

[ghostguy6]

Originally Posted by twospirits

is an understatement. If they act like that now can you imagine if it gets serious. Run while you still can. As for the important phone call, call her back and explain it was a mistake you hanged up.

the phone call thing was sorted out, as for the two that threatend me i warned them that if the do that again they will get hurt! I wont say how or by who, but i will say law enforcement will be playing a part off the record, then officaily. those two are members of this forum, I wont give names but you two know who im talking about

[zebrathree]

Your mate can still be deployed, it happens in the reserves.

Lucky he's off to the Ghan.

[ghostguy6]

Originally Posted by zebrathree

Your mate can still be deployed, it happens in the reserves.

Lucky he's off to the Ghan.

I didnt even know he had joined up,Let alone completed boot. He was talking about it thats all anyone knew, his own parents called a few days ago and asked me if i knew anything I spent most of the day today evaluating my life and ive come to the following conclusions, Ive got no friends here, everyone I call a friend lives at least in a different province or country, the relationships i had with people in my area are beyond repair. Fuck I dont know what to do.