Too bad were taught from the getgo to be automotons. Right now, im a senior in HS, and i have to must my butt to get good grades so i can get into college so that i can get a good job so taht im not poor so that when i die, there will be....money left over?
It's sad.
And if you make one little mistake when you're young, like having a 2.9 GPA instead of 3.0....heck, that could screw ya over. No these days, i feel that it's impossible to live "for the day". You can't succeed without thinking about tomorrow, next week, next year. But what is success? Having a good paying job? Well if that's true, then our society is governed by money it seems. Im being taught that not doing absolutley excellent in school, even if i try to, is being a failure. The rest of my life is going to be decided in less than nine months. Kinda seems unfair, huh? And then i get to deal with pretentious people, that act like they care, but really don't. That's including freinds, teachers, adults...
Life, it seems..is..i dont know. Pointless right now. If i die right now, will anyone care? I mean, yeah, my parents (hopefully) my ex-girlfriend, my freinds...but in the long run? They'll die, no one will really remember me.
I think i need to talk to a psychiatrist, does it seem like im OVERLY depressed?