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Searing Words of Update
After withholding information from an individual from my past for well over two months, he contacts me with the message, "Are you still alive?" After much deliberation and the attempt to put his message at the back of my mind, I replied, "Alive and well. How are you?"
He responds back with a short, summarized update on his life and love. And there is one sentence that seemed to sear my very core when I read it and it shouldn't, because I'm about to fly to Portland to meet my potential in-laws. Yes, there was an extremely strong attraction. And yes, months upon months ago he wanted me to stray from the relationship I was in, and I refused. And yes, there was a point when he would call me up just to say goodnight. He was my anchor in many senses. And then something happened and I turned him away, no longer wanting to play his games when he treated me horribly. No longer wanting to give him the opportunity to belittle me.
And now I'm in a perfectly wonderful relationship with a man who has expressed his intentions to marry me, who has an entire family who assaults him with questions about me as they are anxiously waiting to meet me, who wiped away every tear when we had to say goodbye when I moved back to California.
So why is the one sentence, "Kara and I are doing well" functioning like a knife?
Oh, bloody hell....:apuke:
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