FUCK FUCK FUCK!
This shit aint easy....these tests, the nature of it alone makes my stomach turn from how hard each step is and the importance I have placed upon it! So why do I feel like I have a dead weight attached to my neck? Why must I be pulled down?!?!?!?!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!
DAMNIT!
I dont want to change it that way but do I have to? I am so sick of going from happy to sad, so sick of trying to only get bullshit. The night before...actually 3 hours before I had to get up I was draged down to the point of depression...yeah...that helps make me determined to push myself to my limits....
FIUCCKF FUCK!
