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Well Mason, i can tell you this....time heals all wounds.. I KNOW that sounds like BULLSH*T...but with death, and woman problems..that's what it takes..time.

Yeah you will ALWAYS look back from time to time, and remember the past..and get depressed, that's normal. As far as the car situation....ouch...i know ALL TO WELL my brother..

Jeez..i'm turning the clock back here... The summer of 2001 i had to get a real beater...it was an 87 chrysler lebaron gts (not the k car/it was a better body style).... This car was horrid. PS a couple months later i rear ended someone on the highway in traffic at like 15mph cause he had no brakelights (and i was tired).... The car was FUGLY after that..but still drove fine.....2 weeks after that, going home after a 14hr shift (being the manager of a retail mall store from 8am-10am wasn't fun) i lost control on black ice and slid into a 30MPH sign, TOTALLY taking that bitch down..lol. The next day i picked her up at the tow depot, drove it home with oil leaking out the pan (the metal from the sign HOOKED in the oil pan) and went to home depot to get something to mend the 4 inch slash in the pan....turns out i got this marine epoxy/boat healer stuff....worked great, lasted the next month....

How can it get any worse..? Well, 2 accidant later...don't forget...the cars front end looks like ASS. I had to literally drill holes in the hood, and rig up high tensile bungee cord hooked in the hood, to the chassis under the radiator. The bumpers was cracked, half off..the headlights i duct-taped in place.....it was comical... BUT, now the worst part... And i'll never, NEVER forget this... I got off work, and wanted to get a coffee..i go to dunkin donuts at like 10:45pm, it was a saturday.... As soon as i arrived, i was like "oh shit"..cause there was a crowd of cute girls/there boy friends etc...... Luck has it, my spot is right in front of them...i parked...they where all laughing at me... Cruel, intentional...man i felt so down... I get back in the car after getting my coffee....and more people leave the store...and as they come out...they where laughing...these where adults also...

I'll never forget that night... I remember it so good cause at that time my mother was in the hospital, i was working 60hrs a week..to help out with rent...now i gotta deal with people laughing at me. BTW i do have friends in which EVERYTHING is paid for....that always gripes my ass..

Sorry for the long reply...