You guys (and girls) all rock I really appriciate all your advice, It helps
I feel better slightly, Im not in any immidiate danger of killing myself, thank god I would regret it, its not so much that I want another girl, its just I dunno, I just maybe need to get over her and try to cope. I dont know. I think its really probly a big hit to my self esteem, thats probly half the reason I feel like shit, I mean after her telling me all these things and her leaving I blame myself Physically, No not like that either ,
but I look in the mirror and pick myself to pieces. she told me she wants to get back with me maybe after highschool, I see this as basically her wanting to sleep around and then come back to me. so I dunno I cant "be" with her, My girl friends tell me I shouldnt talk to her for like 2 weeks and it will be easier, Sleeping with her will probly make things harder also, Id probly feel like shit too. I guess sex with her now is just a way for me to feel wanted, in the moment she needs me and she says all the things I want to hear but when its over things take a crap. hehee So I probly shouldnt sleep with her. My birthday is in 10 days and I dont know what to do she wants to come to my birthday party to be around me but I dont know. homecomeing is in 2 weeks and I lost my girl. Its like I had my eggs in one basket and my basket broke and my eggs fell out. hehe I dont Know,
After all this I thank you all for all your advice you all helped me though probly the hardest emotional time in my life. I dont want to look for a girl to replace her cause I know It wouldnt be right I just need to live life and hopefully Ill meet another girl and we will CLICK and things will go right.
I took this pic today
Im the ugly guy in the front with the grey gap shirt on
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But at least I can smile
How do I merge the thread wioth its identical one in completely off topic?