[knorwj]

god i'm so frustrated at my friends. I don't understand what it is.

OK so my birthday is officially over as of 5 minutes ago (typing this as of 12:05 Nov 4)... anyway. my 21st birthday sucked I didn't really do anything I don't even think I drank until the weekend after my b-day. Anyway so this was my 22nd birthday and also the last year that many of my really good friends will be in college. I decided to have a party this weekend with all my friends espescially those who seem too busy to hang otu most of the time. I called them and said that I would plan MY birthday party around them just so they could show up.... yeah they said they'd get back to me after making up a few excuses.

some other friends I try to call and get over here and they talk to you for awhile but as soon as you mention comeing over they stop talking... yup ok I get the point guys. F*ck me.

Anyway I went all day and out of the lets say 50 or so friends I have at school not one said happy birthday to me, and they all know it was my birthday. god I try and be such a nice guy to everyone I know. When its thier birthday I go out of my way to track them down and say happy birthdya but for me... its like ehh nobody cares its just Will. WTF.

I don't think i've had a fun birthday since I came to college and now its my 5th year here... yes 5th year.


Its not my friends either because if it was someone elses birthdya everyone would be like oh my god lets have a party or lets do this or whatever... what the hell why can't someone once at least go out of thier way for me? maybe this sounds selfish but I am that guy who does anything for anyone only to be nice and I never ask anything in return... If a girl has a flat at 4 in the mornign BAM i'm their to fix it for them if they call me, I don't ask for a thing I just go because thats what I do. but at the same time I feel like in everyday life I get shit on constantly by these same people that I go out of my way for... I'm really getting tired of my so called friends. hell right now one of my roommates felt bad and invited a few people over to hang out... they said happy birthday and are now all locked in his room smoking while I sit in my room typeing this...

this post kinda makes me sound like the push over loser guy.. but i'm not i'm good looking outgoing etc. have lots of friends but for some reason they alwasy seem to overlook the minor things especially with me.



WOW thats a long post... well thanks guys for sticking through it if you did, just need to let loose.