[Sanchi]

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!


I'm am such an emotional reck right now. I'm not sure wether i should feel happy or f'ed in the head. On Sunday to my very surprize i get a phone call late night. and... and guess who it was.

Yup it was her. The source of all my sorrow, well any ways she calles me up after bout a month of nothing. (read very first post) and i just lost it. i melted at the sound of her voice. :flash: :flash: i was bout to explode with happiness.. i think that was it.

Anyways she was nearly crying on the phone just when she heard my voice as well. A million thing were going through my mind when i saw her name flashing on my caller ID (cell phone) We had a little small talk and then i told her was it okay for me to go see her. She said it was okay.....

When i got there, it was the strangest feeling just takeing over. I havent realy seen her in 2 monts so. well we talked and talked for bout 2 hour's, prior to this day i had made up my mind about her and i was over her, and ready to move on with my life. So one can only imagion the situation i'm in atm.

She was crying pritty much the entire time i was there. It was a very emotional 2 hours for us. Alot was said, and all in all i got the closure i was after... well some what. I was right about the fact that she was seeing some one new... she said she was kinda seeing someone.

It was a very comforting 2 hours... so comforting and im afraid i have once again fallen back into my little hole. All that getting over her and moveing on has been lost, and i am once again LOST!!!!! SHe said she has been thinking about me alot and stuff and was feeling very guilty about our whole situation.

I absolutly have no ideal what to think right now or what to do about this. All my feeling have been some what rezorected. AHHHHHHHH!!!! Why must this happond to me