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alas, the blade that once was in my hand can not tell me what top do. Irony serves as a bittersweart reminder to my life, ,all of it, all of them. She can not tell me what to do eather...I have to make the decison on my own when yet its too soon, but it becons to me with such a driving force I know not to stay...or fight. In the end I shall be with one...but they talk of both...sometimes I wish for neather...

All thats left is me sitting...blade in hand...watching the horizon for the time to be true....watching....for all I have is time...

Thats Pretty Deep Shit
if you serious about that you should like seek some help

Originally posted by Amish_kid
Thats Pretty Deep Shit
if you serious about that you should like seek some help

:eek: I second that...

not killing myself, or someone else

its different than that, it involves a long story which would be far more than I could write here

Originally posted by TerminalVelocity
not killing myself, or someone else

its different than that, it involves a long story which would be far more than I could write here Well, you did start the thread. Would you have done so if you didn't want to tell your story, and to have people listen to it? Your audience is waiting.....

intresting point...

this will probally...sadly...be in instalments

it all starts with a girl *dosent it always though?*

She and I got to know eachother years ago...we had alot of history through out lives, much I dont care to speek of, its held within my heart and hers. We both swordfought alot, we were into that, and so to us we always held a faund place for we both were matches for eachother.

I had noone at the time, and she had a very abusive signifant other, well, ironically how we met was because of him. I was fiends with him and he felt she was being wrong to him, and being too curt etc, so he wanted me to talk to her. I suprised her and just randomly took her aise and talked to her, introduced myself, ,but it was as though neather of us needed to.

I saw more and more how he was abusing her, and cheating on her and finally pleaded to her...after long enough it came down to him wanting to swordfight me over it *he never faught before...* I eneded up teaching him a well deserved lession...They were still together after this, but not for long.

Finally she couldnt take it and broke up with him. I never went after her because to me it was like an uneartly angelic being, and what am I but a simple man (boy at the time).

Next thing you know she was living out in flordia...mass far away with her abusive parents, and not much to call her own. We still kept in touch online. Well, I had a few relationships here and there, and so did she, finally she got with her current boyfriend, and I with my current girlfriend. She had to go out to see her real father in Az, for the last time legally, so I came out to see her *her abusive father might I add* It was amazing...we didnt need to speek to know what the other thought, we both had the same skills, she is still one of the few to match me.

She was going to leave with me because he was abusing her...but she didnt...she stayed to protect her younger sister.

I'll stop here, it feels like i'm leaving out alot...i'll post more later...

Okay, TV. I've read up so far :)

Sounds like a tragedy in the making. Any chance social services can get involved to help the little sister at least?

its probally not as bad as it sounds other than things repeating themselves and having to make painfull decisions.

To add on to the former post, shes amazingly beautiful, shes charming, her eyes are able to melt most peoples hearts and attract them to her. Well, that was another problem. She was raped before she met the abusive boyfriend...This made it hard for her to be with guys in any way, but this guy *mav to use a moniker of his* was the first guy to treat her kindly enough to help her get over it. He was extremly nice and caring untill she opened up and no longer had such a problem. Later, at the abusive part, he kept trying to have sex with her, she told me she wanted to to make him happy...but she would have flashbacks, she does from simply kissing her. Everyday he would brag to me and others how he was going to get some.

Another thing is we both swore to never live normal lives.

I beat him with my hands in the swordfight bty, I ended up not needing my blade.

And when we were in AZ (some of you may rember me posting at the time, if I did...dont rember) we were alot friendlier, we both had signifant others, we felt safe we wouldnt hurt them so we werefriendly, during the movie I held her, we curled up together after the dad left, stuff like that.

Her father was very nice when I was there, ironically he dwarfs me, which says alot.

Well, I started to feel for her again like I did many years ago...this time we talked about it. Aparently she always felt the same way...and her boyfriend was treatig her rather...poorly...nothing too bad really, just acting strangly. And at the time my girl was being very hostile...and all around not someone I wished I was with. We swore not to do anything though, because we were involved with others.

someone here, I have to go...will write later

shit..........man this is deep......i dont have anythin more to say...........

IMHO, you really need to get both of those sisters away from the father. CYS can help, and you can remain an anonymous tipper if you so desire. It's not healthy to grow up in an environment like that. Fearing your caregivers isn't what it's all about.

Sounds like a real rock and a hard spot, but I think it's safe to say that we're all here should you need to talk.

I'm too tired to write much, but i'll clear this up

She ended up going back to flordia, and I left for home

Neather has to see him again due to some court decision. Also shes old enough to where she dosent have to anyway. The mother is abusive only to S *my friend* who nolonger lives there *will explain later* the mother did things like drug her with valium to keep her under controll *read-quiet* and stuff like that...

But, as I said, she dosent live there anymore.

I tell alot of those parts to explain what I was there for her with, and what I had to witness to show our bond.

I'll write more later... (oh, and they were reported on, the social workers did absolutly nothing to help..., they saw the parents as perfect....)

I'm not going to stick my nose in pretending to have solutions for you, but I will say this. You have best wishes from the bottom of my heart for whatever decision you make. I hope you both end up leading happy, fulfilled lives.

Oz

Originally posted by Oz
I'm not going to stick my nose in pretending to have solutions for you, but I will say this. You have best wishes from the bottom of my heart for whatever decision you make. I hope you both end up leading happy, fulfilled lives.

Oz

yeah what Oz said, seriously


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