Support and the lack there of!

FUCK FUCK FUCK!

This shit aint easy....these tests, the nature of it alone makes my stomach turn from how hard each step is and the importance I have placed upon it! So why do I feel like I have a dead weight attached to my neck? Why must I be pulled down?!?!?!?!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!

DAMNIT!

I dont want to change it that way but do I have to? I am so sick of going from happy to sad, so sick of trying to only get bullshit. The night before...actually 3 hours before I had to get up I was draged down to the point of depression...yeah...that helps make me determined to push myself to my limits....

FIUCCKF FUCK! :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead:












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i went through that stuff this summer dude, on one end I was excited to start boot camp but on the other I would have to leave my friends, g/f, family and everything else. Just surround yourself with positive things and keep busy...

sorry people aren't there aren't very supportive. i care about you and support you 100% tho! and this is like your 3rd stress release thread this week :( you need a vacation hun. you can do it. get sleep when you can, stay strong and i know you'll succeed. :smooch:

I got people who support me....Redneck, my dad and a pair of marines...

but I wish I had some support at home...uugghhhh....

thanks for the supportive words though guys

:p I say a generous amount of Vodka in some V8 juice will work wonders for ya, bud!!!!!!!!!:iceslolan

Seriously, find something or someone positive to ease the down you describe. Or tell us, we listen, and advise.

**Disclaimer** A straight opinion is not always welcomed by the recipient.

its just hard to believe I can be strong enough to become what I am trying for, if women can crush my heart and spirit so...

its just hard to believe I can be strong enough to become what I am trying for, if women can crush my heart and spirit so...

Its only because you let them but learn from what they did so they wont next time.

only way I could do that is if I dont love again...uuugghhhh

the whole lone wolf thing dosent seem great to me

FUCK FUCK FUCK!

This shit aint easy....these tests, the nature of it alone makes my stomach turn from how hard each step is and the importance I have placed upon it! So why do I feel like I have a dead weight attached to my neck? Why must I be pulled down?!?!?!?!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!

DAMNIT!

I dont want to change it that way but do I have to? I am so sick of going from happy to sad, so sick of trying to only get bullshit. The night before...actually 3 hours before I had to get up I was draged down to the point of depression...yeah...that helps make me determined to push myself to my limits....

FIUCCKF FUCK! :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: :banghead:
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I went through that too.

There is a saying "Its not the outcome its the journey" fuck that just do what you can and once its over, hehe, beer.

i would just take a vacation and get away for awhile...