Kid posts suicide note on Myspace.

Found this on another forum. I searched here and didn't find anything about the incident.

http://news.newamericamedia.org/news/view_article.html?article_id=6d8134fbbe964d76f864b 3b9682dcb19

Czech Republic--At 8:14 a.m. on Nov. 29, Joshua Anson Ballard posted his final bulletin on the Internet social-networking site MySpace.com. Ballard, who took the online identity "you BROKE my LIFE," followed his subject line, "do me a favore [sic] ....", with a body that read:

"call the police.
Address ... Abadejo, Mission Viejo, CA 92692.
tell them to go down the hall to the bathrooom.
im soo sorry<3"

About 15 minutes later, according to the Orange County coroner's office, Josh, 17, killed himself with a gunshot to the head. Within minutes, MySpace, which promotes social interaction among young people and is popular with teenagers, was alight with messages about the suicide. Here in Prague, I saw a note about Josh on MySpace and checked it out.

By 10 p.m. the night of his death, Josh was being eulogized.

He killed himself over a girl "and other things," writes Flower King Of Flies on MySpace, who says the death was preventable. "This could of ben stoped," he says via a Myspace comment page that has become Josh's memorial. "All the people that knew didnt do shit. i had a good time with u in ceramics. f--- all your friends that did nothing."

So it goes, Josh's life splayed out on the black backdrop he'd created as his space.

According to his words, Josh loved "girls who cry"; was married; was 8 feet, 11 inches tall and made $250,000 a year or more. Josh was a smartass. He posted self-portraits that featured him at his emo-kid best: shaggy hair, pouting lips, intentionally blank expression. He posted an ad for a clothing company called Emo Police that featured a man hanging from the P.

Emo, a 20-year-old sub-genre of punk rock, didn't kill Josh, even if emo songs are mostly un-ironic paeans to self-pity. Kids kill themselves whether they listen to country or classical. The death-trip soundtrack can easily be Snoop Dogg or Slayer; on Josh's page, it's Senses Fail.

Josh wanted. He sought attention by posting surveys in his blog with categories like "Would you ..." and questions like "stick up for me if I was being put down?" In another, he queried friends as to whether they loved him, had crushes on him, etc. The surveys, common among Myspace teenagers, mean little more than that the kid dug compliments. Craved 'em.

Sixty-two times he was eulogized -- sometimes with just one line, sometimes with just a word -- in the first 17 hours. "i'm speechless," wrote Kelsey, a 17-year-old from San Juan Capistrano who enjoys "good times." "Rest in peace, Josh." Rach, who posted seven farewells in those hours, told him, "It says you broke my life - well you broke ours."

I didn't know Josh, should never have. Wouldn't have, had a former source in Idaho not posted a bulletin from her Myspace account. "this is the most horrible thing i've ever seen," Tori'd headlined it, using haphazard Myspace capitalization. "Honestly," wrote the former Orange County teen who'd received it as a forward from a friend. "It will make you sick to your stomach." I read it, braced for some banal but benign forwarded joke.

Now I know Josh, know that his friend YOUR KISSES MAKE MY HEART STOP says he was the happiest guy around. He protected her from mean guys at school, protected her from spiders, always told her to smile. "unfortunatly we had a scary about 4 days ago he atemted suicid and failed we were all on his back ever since but this mornig right before school he posted this on a bulliton ..." she wrote me. "as soon as my friend rach saw that she told mimi and mimis mom call the police and drove up to his house (they live 1 street up from each other) she found it was to late. if i could telll josh one thing is that i love you and i wish that you could have send the people that hold you dear to there hearts. you always seid that nothing is as bad as it seem."

Kids type quicker than they think. They bleed words, don't contrive them, and, even if I disdain Net-speak, I have the luxury of never needing to type so frantically. Immersed in his requiem, not 30 hours after he did what he did, I know Joshua Anson Ballard. With his suicide announced on an Internet bulletin, his life remembered in a series of hastily typed prose that comes in blurbs and missives, and his loved ones handling their grieving through instant messages and blogs, will forever words be left on his Web page rather than coins or roses on his grave? We'll have to visit every Nov. 29.


Maybe he'll go to emo heaven now? :dunno:
Discuss.

Wow.. thats a weird way to leave a suicide note.

Yay Darwinism! :rofl:

Emo bitch. :loser:

i guess clawhammer's sig comes into play:

"are you emo? want to cry? if so, we can help!
When nobody loves you:
smith-wesson.com"

sux, went thru similar shit, but he coulda saved himself. bet u whatever he was crying over was pretty much worthless anyway.

myspace...meh.

now they're gonna be held responsible again for another kids death. damn you al gore and your internet invention!!! wait...

Then i couldnt be here on AF ranting about this stupidity.

Seriously man that just completes my theroy about 90% of the people that use that shit. It sucks that he went out the way he did along with leaving his last words on some fucking net blog(an internet popularity contest. and that in itself is an oximoron.) Peace-

Hm, Mission Viejo, my home town. Crazy shit. Can't say I knew the dude though.

Thats just plain F'd up... :screwy:

Seriously man that just completes my theroy about 90% of the people that use that shit. It sucks that he went out the way he did along with leaving his last words on some fucking net blog(an internet popularity contest. and that in itself is an oximoron.) Peace-

hahaha, i'm glad i'm not alone with that thought.

Wait wait, Travis, you didn't type that up did you? If you didn't, that had to be the worse news write ups ever. Do they have no editors over there?

Anyways, I hate to be mean to someone who just died, but damn, what a fuckin pansy. Emo's dive me insane, they're all a buncha cry babies bitchin for attention with their fictional personal "tragedies". Out of all the people I've ever met who had serious events happen that'd you'd think would drive them to be emotional (parents dying, bankruptcy, etc.) none of them ever really show it, mainly because they just want to be happy. Suicide is just selfish if you ask me. Ending yor own "pain" and causing it for others. And what'd he do it for? A girl? Are you fucking serious? Ehhhhh, just one less weakling on this Earth I guess. Everyone has the power to steer their life at one point or another. So if he really wanted attention, being an emo girly man was the wrong way to go, that only steers people away.

Now I'm gonna go eat some pancakes before I really have to get medieval in here....

Emo's dive me insane, they're all a buncha cry babies bitchin for attention with their fictional personal "tragedies".

you know what, i gave up on complaining about emo kids. they're there, nuthin u could do about it. i figure, "hey, whatever gets them off.":loser:

there are a lot of people that complain about BS. you can't say EMOs are the only ones. they're just more annoying about cause the people that do seriously complain feel it and although it maybe minor, it affects them deeply and may wind up like this...person. EMOs just always complain cause its...cool??? and they think something affects them only to gain attention and compete with the next EMO kid cause someone's life has gotta suck more

and they think something affects them only to gain attention and compete with the next EMO kid cause someone's life has gotta suck more



:lol:

Emo kids bitch about their lives. You guys bitch about emo kids. What makes you any better than them?? :rolleyes:

^i should be sig quoted :D *averts eyes*

*goes back to studying finals. stupid AF distraction*

Eh, I saw his myspace. Its been everywere but I think they took it down now.

^Got the link to it? I'd like to see it.

Why bitch about emo kids? Seriously they are the same as anyother group of kids who are just trying to belong because they don't have the slightest idea who they are. So they use music, tv, etc... to make a personality. Let em go to college or turn 20 then they'll leave it all behind. Is it just me or lately does it seems as though tons of shit in COT has been all this highschool bullshit? Peace-

1 down a few million left.
Was that in bad taste?

Honestly thats kinda sad a group of net strangers were all he had to reach out to. But Somthing was up if this went down.

college??? what dream world are you livin' in that people grow up at the age of 20 or in college??? still...im not complainin just about EMO's. most peoplein general annoy me. but its too many too worry about. thats why i am here on AF! :thumbsup:







:p

No I didn't type that up. That was the link I saw and was too lazy to google for an actual news link, so I went for the half assed one.

You think I would type up all that crap? lol, I don't like AF that much.

I never said that people "grow up" in college or at the age of 20, but they generally have a much better idea of who they are or why the world is the way it is. I'm not talking freshman year of college either, I've seen peope change soooooo much between being a senior in highschool to a freshman in college to a sophmore it isn't even funny lol. Seeing some tool turn into a hippie after the smoked pot is fucking helarious. Peace-

You guys bitch about emo kids. What makes you any better than them?? :rolleyes:

Umm, we want to kill THEM instead of ourselves? Of course that's in poor taste. So?

How do we know that story is for real? Might be just another of 100,000 'net legends.

oh no a stupid emo kid died, 20 bucks says leaving death messages on myspace.com becomes a big fad now among the emo kids.

How do we know that story is for real? Might be just another of 100,000 'net legends.cuz its on the news, not a blog.
oh also, i agree with blindside. quit complaining about emo kids. they're there, nothin you can do about it. just have some fun kicking them in the balls every now and then if you relaly can't stand them.

Jayson, you're on the winning side of that bet.

king, what i was sayin is...most of the world, and by world i mean america is far from seein the world as it truly is by the time they die.

Real emo kids kill themselves.

sad, sad bastard, who would actually do that?

sad, sad bastard, who would actually do that?

Obviously this kid would and did. :lol:

We're going to hell :grinno: <- *i say with the grinning smillie*

WTF is "Emo"?!:dunno:

here you are tonio
http://www.sykospark.net/emo/idiotic.gif

We're going to hell :grinno: <- *i say with the grinning smillie*

no we're not, we're doing a favor for the Big Man upstairs!!

For every emo kid kicked in the balls, an angel gets its wings!:nutkick:

IDK why kids do that dude....every time i feel sad i go drive my car or buy something...but i'm a shallow person!

you guys got it all wrong.

The emo kids act different because they need your hate. It fuels them. They dress that way so you will bring even more hate into their life so they can have the darkest most meaningless life of anyone they know because pain and suffering is where it's really at. So if you're mean to them you're just giving them what they want. I say we should all be nice to emos. Maybe they'll get so confused they'll just die anyways.

you guys got it all wrong.

The emo kids act different because they need your hate. It fuels them. They dress that way so you will bring even more hate into their life so they can have the darkest most meaningless life of anyone they know because pain and suffering is where it's really at. So if you're mean to them you're just giving them what they want. I say we should all be nice to emos. Maybe they'll get so confused they'll just die anyways.

eh, why put the effort? they're all just gonna kill themselves anyway. or maybe there IS truth in what u say, how about we buy these guys some "my chemical romance" cd's?

^Crap! I know what really did it!!!

Anyone get the bullentin I sent out dissing EMO kids and who they are??? Who were my friends??? Hogie, Dave, Rick...a few others. So has got to have it! Tell me so one remembers!

you guys got it all wrong.

The emo kids act different because they need your hate. It fuels them. They dress that way so you will bring even more hate into their life so they can have the darkest most meaningless life of anyone they know because pain and suffering is where it's really at. So if you're mean to them you're just giving them what they want. I say we should all be nice to emos. Maybe they'll get so confused they'll just die anyways.


I saw we send them to Iraq. See how bad there life is in there suburban homes, heh :iceslolan

"just have some fun kicking them in the balls every now and then if you relaly can't stand them"

Pffft... they have none :screwy: why do you think they're emo in the first place :p

as far as guys go at least. still working on a theory for the girls, though I have noticed most tend to be those ugly "barf if i saw her naked" type girls with pasty white skin who's only hope of ever hit on would be by some guy beating her off with an ugly stick.

there are a few exceptions, but whatever.

:rofl:

edit:
After watching this video: http://www.mainstreamtopics.com/members/roadrage/rain.wmv
was about the most "emo" I've ever gotten. It's really quite sad :sadwavey:

One down who knows how many more left. Those kind of people should kill themselfs.

Emo kids bitch about their lives. You guys bitch about emo kids. What makes you any better than them?? :rolleyes:

When they start having real tragedies happen to them, like losing their 9 year old son in a car crash, then I'll start listening to them.

Uh. It's sad whenever people hate a group so much that they can't even feel sorry for them.........but I hate the fuckers too. Look at these non-camera lense looking douschebags!

http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://tragicallypoetic.tripod.com/me/sandy_s_photography_007.jpg&imgrefurl=http://tragicallypoetic.tripod.com/me/index.album%3Fi%3D4&h=662&w=500&sz=52&tbnid=1r2pfT_RTewJ:&tbnh=136&tbnw=102&hl=en&start=134&prev=/images%3Fq%3Demo%26start%3D120%26imgsz%3Dsmall%257 Cmedium%257Clarge%257Cxlarge%26svnum%3D10%26hl%3De n%26lr%3D%26client%3Dfirefox-a%26rls%3Dorg.mozilla:en-US:official%26sa%3DN

I get depressed when people give up like that.

It saddens me people don't want to cope.

Emo at its best on myspace... thats all I have to say... poor kid

Emo at its best on myspace... thats all I have to say... poor kid
Poor kid indeed; there were emo kids in my high school when I was there, 23 years ago. It's nothing new, dispite what they think.
Things get better after high school anyways. What a waste.

Things get better after high school anyways. What a waste.

not true. if they remain in a suicidal state-of-mind they may end up either not continuing education and destroying a potential future, or screw up what new life college had to throw at them.
I was on medications back in high school, aticane? don't remember. REAL strong shit, but a BIG side effect was messing with seretonin levels or something. ends up junior and senior year i was a suicidal idiot, and i had stopped the meds end of junior year. College made me realise how stupid my reasons for being such a moron was... well, moronic. so my advise to any emo fags, do whatever the hell u want in high school, but please, don't let me see u all emo up in college. if so, might it recomend an acid trip to give u a nice 7 hours intraspective on who you are? also, two words that could end up being your best friend: SHIT HAPPENS

The kid lacked style. If I were to ever seriously commit to killing myself, I'd probably commision an eight foot tall bronze statue of myself, and the plaque on the pedastule would be my farewell note. That's the way I'd do it.
What could be more trashy than leaving your final words on an internet site? Seriously.

the kid was an atention-seeker. he wanted everyone to stand up an take notice. he killed himself an got an article written about how crap he thought shit was. these kids are pathetic. i've seen some bad shit in my time an im not bitching over the 'net about it.

he had his attention, he got what he wanted.

the kid was an atention-seeker. he wanted everyone to stand up an take notice. he killed himself an got an article written about how crap he thought shit was. these kids are pathetic. i've seen some bad shit in my time an im not bitching over the 'net about it.

he had his attention, he got what he wanted.

:werd: i think most kids with suicidal tendencies are just attention seekers.

haha, how crap he thought shit was. sry, made me chuckle.