I just wanna be alone

That's all i want...I'm tired of being around people like friends, family, coworkers...I have to get away because i can't take this anymore...

When my girlfriend broke up with me a few weeks ago it opened up a hole in my heart, and i've tried being with people and friends to forget about it, but i was by myself tonight and that's all i thought about. But there's nothing i can do because i have to finish up college by next year... And it's not just my ex that's causing these feelings, i seem to have this sense of lonliness know matter who i'm with, like i dont belong here....I've had that feeling for about two years now.... I wanna move to Chicago because i know there are lots of opportunities for my field of work, and that would mean leaving everything behind, which is perfect... All i want is to be alone, i dont wanna talk to people anymore, i dont want social contacts, no more parties, no more family gatherings, no more hanging out with friends, just me. I'm not depressed because i know that to be depressed you have to be seeing a Dr. for it for at least 3 years to be clinically depressed.... Anyone else feel like you just have to get away from everything? I'm the kind of person who has to be alone for long periods of time to clear my head....

If you want to be alone, then move to Chicago and be done with it. If it'll make you happy, cool. If it doesn't work out, cool. At least you'll know. Then again, i live in Chicago, so i'll know you're here, even though i don't know you. Ya know?

I think i just wanna do what Jon(swigz) did when he went to college, i just want to start a new life and be done with everyone that i know, i was the happiest i had ever been not more than a week ago, but now i realize it was just me trying to tell myself that i was, from denial.....

So move dude. If you think that's what you want, go for it. Chicago is a great place to live.

I cant yet, i have to finish college, i'm can't move until i know i can have a stable career, which makes it all even worse

ya jas m, i used to live in chicago too, down in the damn burbs for now, but z28 man bring your ass up here. so much to do and you can get lost in the crowd and not worry about a thing if thats what you are into. if you want friends around thats easy as hell too man. i actually live about 20 minutes from swigz as of now

I could never do that.... Thats why i was scared of goin somewhere else for college cause i didnt wanna leave my friends. Starting over would suck... leaving people you've known for years.

You should be tight with your boys, if not they aint your real friends

Yeah, but it's not them, they had no part in whats going on right now. I think it's just getting time for me to move on with my life and i dont know how they're all going to take it(family and friends). But that's exactly what i want to do 91300ZXTT(what's your name anyway?), i want to blend in and be alone for a few years, then maybe start making new friends again.

Man cheer up :smile: . Not all is bad all the time. I have been through alot between family, school, women, and everything in between. It all hapens for a reason. I know that I like where I am at now but, if some of the crap that happend to me did not happen, I probabally would be some where elese and be completely someone I am not, and I like the person I am. Hang in there and it will all be good in the hood.


There is a quote that I like alot and I have no clue who said it.

"If your not happy in one place, you probabally won't be happy somewhere elese. Happines is what YOU make of it."

Haha 1 word ~ Bahamas! Bahamas my friend bahamas is the key to relaxation do NOT go to the nassau area thats where the festivitys and kids are. Go to grand bahama island I stayed there f0r 18 days strait when I came back I was so relaxd one of my friends punched me just to get me 2 focus strait. ahhhhh feels sooo good. look for a resort named "our lucaya" means our home btw.

i feel exactly the same... i grew up in a small town, and lived out in the country side for the past 3 years... i just moved into a city and i HATE it. i just wanna be completely alone..

the happiest time of my life was when i was living out in the boonies.. i had no job, no friends, no school, no responsibilities, and lots of weed.. fuck was i ever happy.

its good to get a new start, if ya don't belong... its definitely time to move on.. its so shitty having an ex to worry about as well.

just think the second your done with school you can get your a$$ to Chicago and be happy i know now its gotta sux but just think in a lil while you'll be free

hey z28 my name is eric

Sometimes I just wanna be alone too, I know how you feel.

sorry man, I know how you feel, it really sucks.

hope you feel better

Chicago is a fun city...I live about 50 miles west of there and I go into the city any chance I get. I've gone 1 or 2 times by myself and I had more fun than when I was with my best friends. I got to do whatever I wanted and didn't have to listen to people complaining when I went to the Shedd Aquarium for half a day.

cool man, i used to live on 9th and south michigan avenue, about 3 blocks from shed

Josh take it from someone who knows, you cannot run away from your problems as they will follow you wherever you go. I grew up in a small town of about 2500 and a 2 hour drive from the largest city (Kansas City). I too thought that getting out and leaving freinds and family behind would be the best way to start over after breaking up with my G/F. I hurt so bad I packed up and moved to Phoenix within a month and left friends/family behind. I took me 4 1/2 years to fully realise this was a mistake. To spare details I am moving back to the same sleepy little town that I grew up in because I know realise I was happy back there and family is most important in my life right now and they always will be most important to me. I must be crazy to move back I will go from making 60K out here a year to making just under 30K back there. Its not the money though, money and material possesions has never truley made me happy. Its freinds that I can trust, its family thats there for me when I need them. Its also me being there for them when they need me. In the years I have been here I have nearly lost all contact with my brother, aunts/uncles, cousins, grandparents.

Well I'm no good at writing this kind of shit but just wanted to give you something to think about, I wish someone would have talked me out of moving away as things that have taken place up here would never have happend and here I am running away again, but at least I'm going back to my roots. I don't plan on starting over back there just picking up where I left off years ago and finally putting my life together and being happy with who I am and not what I can do or achieve monetarily..

Best of luck to you.

John

Thank you, a good friend of mine who now lives in Carbondale gave me kind of the same advice, he said "just remember, without family you have nothing." And i took that into consideration along with your post.

There was also a friend of mine who got kinda sad when i told her, she wouldn't say anything except "Dont leave me, all my other friends are leaving me and i definately dont want you to." So i had to take that into consideration. I may wait maybe 3 years to make sure i'm leaving for the right reasons, but i would really like to get out on my own and learn what it's like one way or another...Either far away or a few minutes away, maybe i just want to get out on my own...

dude, i know how that goes i'm the same way. I have to be alone and shit for my problems, i cant talk to people about them. life has just gotten worse every day for me it seems like. you can see it in my grades and see it in my attitude, my freshman year i was alwasy above a 3.5, i was happy and having a good year, sophomore my grades droped, i was once in awhile late to school grades were around a 2.2, this year i don't even care, it just seems like i can never do anything right, i was gonna start my own thread a while back but didn't feel the need to i guess. one morning i had just had it, i took off and people were lookin for me, i went to a local spot with my truck and back into the woods. as a kid i use to hike them all the time and absolutely loved it, so i kinda did that while thinking about things, i guess it kinda helped, i mean i came back but there were still problems and still are and will be, i'm just a little better at dealing with them...sometimes getting away to be alone helps, most of your problems are back but if you have time to think about them i think it helps and you have to be somewhere relaxed. there is so much i could say about what has happened in the pas month and everything, main reason i dint' start a thread is because it'd be like writing a fucking book and it'd take most of my time...but if ya ever need to talk i can help or many of the cool people here at AF can associate with ya too...

I'll keep all these posts in mind... Thank you all