It Never Works Not Matter How I Try!!!!

well for the third time in my life i tried to kill myself again.........ive cut my self and takin pills and i always fuckin wake up. i dont know if i can handle this anymore

there is so much stress going on in my life and i cant deal with it.........i should seriously just write a will to have all my things actioned off and the money go to my fiance to clear up the debt and finish the job

I dont care if its open casket or not anymore just get me off this retarded spinning ball we call Earth.

Suicide is not the answer. Find what's causing the problems in your life and fix them one at a time.

Life is easy, chill out.

Cutting and substance abuse doesnt help anything, it feels good for a little while, then it wears off, so you do something more extreme to try to make yourself feel better. It will continue in a downward spiral like this. Ive been there.What you have to do is think about what makes you depressed an you have to deal with it head on.

well for the third time in my life i tried to kill myself again.........ive cut my self and takin pills and i always fuckin wake up. i dont know if i can handle this anymore

there is so much stress going on in my life and i cant deal with it.........i should seriously just write a will to have all my things actioned off and the money go to my fiance to clear up the debt and finish the job

I dont care if its open casket or not anymore just get me off this retarded spinning ball we call Earth.


Your fiance???

You need to chill out and get laid more often.

if you really wanted to kill yourself u would have shot yourself or jumped off a tall object, u just want a pity party. Why dont u just tell us your problems.....
Tell us whats wrong,
You have already posted about the expensive engine thet blew due to no fault of your own.
I know that I would be suicidal if I drove that hill-billy low rider of yours, :smile: but I sure that's not it.

but there is nothing in life worth taking your life. Now you wouldn't have posted if you did not want to talk. There's lots of people here to listen and most of us have been in bad situations and overcome them.

So take advantage of our willingness to listen and start talking.

Obviously its not your time to go.

honestly..i dont wanna sound harsh or anything but u need to grow up and deal with things. we all have problems. what makes you special that u can get out easy. :)....oh and if u wanna get off this earth..just like hop on a spaceship or something. cheer up man. nothing is worth killing yourself over..

Okay, first of all your birthday is August 1st, 1986 so that makes you 18 right?? You've got your whole life ahead of you. You are just getting started why would you want to end it? The best parts of your life are just starting. Sometimes things are rough but you gotta tough it out. My best friend just lost her boyfriend of two years, they were engaged and she is like incomplete with out him. Her friends support her and stuff and she is really depressed but she's doing pretty damn good. You need to step back and look at your life and realize that other people have problems (probably bigger than your own) too. If everybody killed themselves everytime they had a bad day or got depressed... the world would be pretty much empty. And another thing: If you really wanted to kill yourself you could've succeded by now. I mean it doesn't take three or more times to do it, it should be easy enough the first time. So get over yourself and realize that life is a gift and fix your problems.

Move out of Iowa, problem solved. That state would make anybody wanna kill themselves.

things have really piled up in the lat few weeks/months i got arrested for assualt and since i was still under 18 they kept it as assualt but if 1 thing goes wrong i get attempted murder slapped on my ass.........my fiance got arrested and we keep drifting apart.......im back with my abusive parents cant go anywhere (on house arrest) i have no money......no job anymore..........cant get back in school......my whole fuckin family cant accept my fiance....and this is all within like 3 weeks........its to much to deal with......ive got a counselor set up to see and im getting a physc evaluation. and hytaus u need to shut the hell up b/c only if you knew man........i dont thrive off fuckin pity this is stress realease and i have to many damn problems to deal with so y dont you just shut the hell up. it people like you that piss me off b/c they think they got everyone figured out.....take advice from me shut the hell up. after i moved out of my parents house i lost all support from them......they said "you ever need anything dont come back" and the only reason im back is b/c they would rather have me home then in jail. since ive been back ive been in 3 fights with my step-dad and my mom and i dont get along.......seriously who do i have left to help me??? huh?? i anit got shit anymore except for my fiance who is drifting away real fast. shit has got to stop. o by the way THIS STATE SUCKS ASS!!

Assualt?
What was it about?

And you have to drive that car too? Wow, that sucks.
If it's any help, take the long term view and make a plan. Its easier to deal with stuff is you have a way of fixing them, even if it takes a couple of years.

You won't have to live at home forever, you need to right now, just to get over your legal problems.
As for assault, they won't throw you in jail, at your age. It will be probation. Get some counselling, it can only help.
After that, (it may be a year or more,) work on learning a skill, trade, apprenticeship so you can get a job, be financially independent so you don't have to deal with your family again.

Sure, its easy for me to say, but your problems are not exactly unique.

The fact is that anyone who wants to kill themselves and is serious about it, doesn't fail. People who kill themselves are fucking cowards. Sissy little "poor me and my terrible life" cowards.


Since you failed in your attempt, you might be coming under the realization that you can do something about your situation. The way you described everything, only the part about your fiance pertains to something that you do not completely control. You spend a lot of time whining about everything thats bad in your life. Either get proactive in solving them or take the cowards way. Your choice.

I wasn't going to say it but Yogs did......and he's right.

You're crying about being under house arrest for assualt, well that sucks man.....maybe you shouldn't have assualted the person?
Did you ever thing you put yourself in the situation?

Life pwnz j00. Live it.

I agree with the above two posts. Kill yourself or get over it. Don't come in here with your pity me suicide bullshit. Lots of people have worse problems than you. They deal with them maturely and rationally- like adults.

ok i wasnt whinng about the assualt charge i just mentioned it........ya i fucked up i gotta deal with it and i am..................my counselor put me on some pill like Lexapro for depression and today i found out that suicide runs in my family.........so i figure if it happens it happens

And Lay Off My Fuckin Car Man!!!!!!!!! Dont Sit Here And Dis Your Shit.....i Havent Even Had A Chance To Do The Body Work So Fuck Off...............and Incase You Want To Know The Spoiler Is Going Buh-bye And The Hood Is Staying So Just Back Off............and Its Not Some Lowrider............struts Are Bad And The Air Shocks Leak So Just Lay Off Man Shit.

first of all, I think you need to chill out and think things through. just sit down and think about whats going wrong and what you want to fix. then, act like an adult, which you are at 18 years of age, and deal with it. other people have gone through worse than you without thinking about killing themselves. also, the excuse that suicide runs in your family is bullshit. maybe depression is genetic, I don't know, but that is a lame ass excuse for trying to commmit suicide. don't be a pussy ass, and suck it up. I agree with Yogs and the others. DEAL WITH IT. be a man. don't whine so much.

already been there......i lived on the streets of Hudson florida for three weeks just looking for a place to stay.........so dont give me that bullshit........ya a lot of people have different and more extreme problems then me but everyone deals with shit differently........im just tired of the bullshit and really depressed.

hmmmmmmmmm.......homicide sounds better :angryfire

You just need to find a good song to listen to. Download the song "Jupiter" by 311. Trust me, it'll make you feel good.

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Jupiter


Sometimes the only thing that saves you
Think of bad things luck never gave you
And although your true love has just left you
Well at least you mother kept you

Be sure that a dreams alive
There only short burst in life
Are you able to be satisfied
Do you expect fun all the time?

Hey we can rock it easy and lay it in the fold
Hey we can shake you simply just by being cold
And if it falls apart will you still be my friend
Get back we're gonna stick together

And so many things that have gone wrong
At least you have ears to hear this song
And if you reading in close caption
There's still bad things that could have happened

Long time since we've first came here
And sometimes we fall on deaf ears
One thing I've got to say before sales dive
Stay positive and love your life

Hey we can rock it easy and lay it in the fold
Hey we can shake you simply just by being cold
And if it falls apart will you still be my friend
Get back we're gonna stick together

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Don't say that it wasn't for attention and pity, because it was. Suicide is all too real to me seeing as I just had a friend kill herself less than a week ago. I've attempted it a few times and decided it's not worth the pain that everyone else will go through. She was only 16 and had a lot to live for, but she decided that life was too much for her to handle and I'll always hate her for that, but I truly loved her enough to die for her. It might seem like the easy way out, but when you actually do it, it brings people to their knees and does more harm than good. These past 3 days being the first time that I have cried in a long while, I've now lost my one true friend that listened anytime I needed someone to talk to and it makes me want to be invisible to everything and think that in a little while, I'll wake up and it's all a dream. But it's not.

sorry to hear that man...........u know i never thought how much it could actually hurt other people........i guess im just being selfish

hyatus man, i dont believe this guy anymore than you do, but damn bro chill. no point in starting with this guy/kid or whatever he may be. all im saying is just dont do something that might get you in some shit, you know.

well subconsiosly u dont want to die if u did yout go for the sure way with a gun

your doing this other crap hoping thers a chance u dont die subconsiosly

not to mention if u realy love your fiance u wont keep her close to u while intending to die

your just stressed out and neew a few drinks, and something to smoke trust me and try it

Hyatus- Please keep quiet and stop being a twat, any more of your attitude and you're in ban city for how wver long I designate....

any one reminded of that seinfeld bit, like about the people who fail at killing themself, and want to kill them self because they fail at everytjing. hahahahaha, sorry for being an insensitive jackass. i think u dont really want to die if u cant do it after 3 tries. theres lots of very effective ways, but dont actually do it. i dont know, i had a friend who shot himself in the head and lived, and as far as i know hes still alive. that was a few years ago now.
i hate life as much, if not more than anyone, but even if life sucks balls, it can only get better from there...at least i would hope. thats what i tell myself. well i dont ever want to die anyway, none should. always have hope. and dont take the bitch way out. and stop reading my ramblings... :rofl:

Don't do it man.
The only thing that will do is prove to everyone that they were right when they called you " insert derogatory comment here".
If you stick it out you can prove them all wrong.

Nothing good ever comes from killing yourself.
All that happens is that you hurt the people who care about you the most and the people that don't give a shit about you laugh at how much they were right about what a loser you were.
Don't give them that satisfaction.
Tell me do you think you're tough? Tough enough to NOT take the cowards way out?
Man, killing yourself is easy.
It's staying alive that is hard.
Getting through life is a struggle.
Did you ever go through something and later on, say a few weeks or so you look back and the thing that was so powerful and total, the thing that you could never see the other side of is no big deal?
An example would be say a blown tire. You are stranded on the side of the road, no spare, ARRGHHH. What will you ever do?
Somehow yuo get through it, someone gives you a ride whatever, and you continue your journey.
Then a few weeks later you are talking about something and it reminds you about the blown tire and you think to yourself, hmmm, you know, that wasn't as big of a deal as I had thought at the time. I got through it and life goes on.

Life sucks man. There's always disappointment. It's how you handle that disappointment that makes you who you are.
There's nothing wrong with writing your struggles down here. It's good to get it out.
But if you think that no one is going to step up and tell you that you are a pussy you are wrong. There are a lot of people who live for that sort of thing.
Everyone has problems man. Some are worse than others, but that doesn't make them any better or worse off.
By the way, you really gotta chill when it comes to your car. To each his own.
The comments ARE funny though. Take it as a joke and move on...

Ok, here my 2 cents. You see that sweet ride you've got (Batman Sunday cruiser), well stop winning to us about your problems, and all this poor me crap, and put a sweeeeeeet motor in that thing, and cook a whole lot a street ricers. no money you say, take out a loan a bet on your races. or just do something to that thing. Come on, you post here so you work with your hands, right? Good. working with your hands will clear your mind so you can think. And if your going to kill yourself like a selfish prick then do it or stop winning about it. No one here thinks you'll do it anyway.

I dont mean to come off as a prick, or asshole, or anything you may want to call me. But, this is a forum. You post to recieve others opinions. Here is mine.

Killing yourself only creates, and leaves your problems for other people do deal with. Suicide is for the weak and selfish.

First, you complain about being charged, and under house arrest? Every action has an equal or opposite reaction. Think before you act. This is the key to life.

Killing yourself and leaving a will for all of your belongings to be auctioned off and the money given to your fiance? What the fuck is that bullshit man? Shes your fiance. Do you not think she might miss you? Usually you are in love with your fiance. If you truely love someone, you would not put them through that kind of pain.

Life is only what you make of it man. If you want your life to suck...It will. If you want to enjoy it. You will... You just need to start making the right choices. Change a few things around, and be on with living.

You were given a gift,Life is a gift, think off all the people that die each day, due to heart failure, kidney failure, w/e failure..If your gonna kill yourself, get a donator card, that way, at least someone can have what you dont want.

Just my 2 pennies :2cents: Think what you will of it... Im just tryin to help ya out.

dude, I usually only like the bimmers, but your car is pretty sweet. I respect you for gettin' a counselor... you've likely been through more than most have.

depression is something that everyone faces at some time or another in their life. I know i went though it for a while and it is horrible, life feels like shit, you hate it so much you just want it to end. But theirs always light at the end of a tunnel and once you get out of it you will realize how stupid even the thought of suicide was. I think back now on when i was depressed, their were times i just wished i would die, id get so angry and my life and the world. For almost a year straight every time i got into my car to drive somewhere the only thing i could think about was speeding into a wall and killing myself. It was really scary. I could image the whole accident unfold in my mind with amazing detail, i could see myself lying bloody and dead in a pile of metal. I could see the paramedics, firefigheters, and police all their. Then i would think about my funeral, if anyone would bother coming to it. Then i thought about my family and what it would do to them, thats what always stopped me from ever doing it.

But life got better and so did i, now thankfully the only thing i think about when im driving is having fun and enjoying the ride. I got my life all back together, went back to school and found a girlfiend who is perfect for me. Give it time, things will get better.

Assualt?
What was it about?


Honestly? Well beat the shit out of my fiance' and when she tried to call for help I smashed her cell phone. The only reason I got caught was bc she managed to get out of the house and she took off running and screaming for help. I cuaght her an drug her back to the house. The neighbors seen it and called the cops. when they showed up she told them there was no problems and we were fine, just an arguement. I later took her to a friends house to stay for a few days and as soon as she got there she pressed charges on me. They wanted to get me for attempted kidnapping bc I held her agaisnt her will and smashed her phone when she wanted to call for help. I got her to drop the charges though. we tried working things out but she said I was beyond help...the counsiling she set up wasnt helping and I kept putting my hands on her so she left me for good back this last aug 2005. she put another restraining order on me and she told me to stay away from her and her family. That answer your questions?

Honestly? Well beat the shit out of my fiance' and when she tried to call for help I smashed her cell phone. The only reason I got caught was bc she managed to get out of the house and she took off running and screaming for help. I cuaght her an drug her back to the house. The neighbors seen it and called the cops. when they showed up she told them there was no problems and we were fine, just an arguement. I later took her to a friends house to stay for a few days and as soon as she got there she pressed charges on me. They wanted to get me for attempted kidnapping bc I held her agaisnt her will and smashed her phone when she wanted to call for help. I got her to drop the charges though. we tried working things out but she said I was beyond help...the counsiling she set up wasnt helping and I kept putting my hands on her so she left me for good back this last aug 2005. she put another restraining order on me and she told me to stay away from her and her family. That answer your questions?
This is way old man, no sense digging up what doesn't need to be.