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OK you all know me and for those who don't i'm tough as nails shit talking and always keep my personal life to me. Well right now i'm going to open up i'm just so worried right now i'm really flipped out and ask you all for your ear.
OK whats going on is my friend whos my life shes truly my angel is very sick and they dont know whats wrong with her. I try to look up and say hey your going to be ok but deep inside i'm so freaked out. I can't lose her shes the only one in this world whos so important to me. I can't let her know i'm scared cause i'm there for her. I gotta hold her hand tell her she'll be ok.
As a few of you know I lost my first love in this world I can't go through it again. I just don't think I can take it again. If I lose her my life would be pointless I barly made it through losing 1 girl dear lord I can't bury 2.
Please all you i beg your to pray for my friends health. And if anyone can maybe give me an idea of how to stay chilled out cause I need to. I have to help her.

My prayers are with you and your friend. I hope she gets well soon. Just be there for her by her side. You being by her side alone can mean so much to her.

Sorry to hear that Max, I'll keep her in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck.

my prayers are with you. i am reallly sorry man

You're in my thoughts Max. If I may, what is wrong with her?

Sorry ot hear man :( my prayers are with the both of you. Don't give up on hope!

Keep hope... just keep hope.

Sorry to hear about that man... my prayers are with you. Maintain positivity and keep your head up, we are all here to support you.

I am so sorry max, i am praying for both of you , and don't give up , we are with you.!

dude, thoughts with you.

just keep being there for her. theres probably not much else you can do.

And I don't want to sound like a cynic, but prepare for things to be hard. I know you probably don't want to here it, but you've got to be prepared.

You can't destroy yourself mentally over this. It won't help you and won't help her either. Remember your life will go on,

I don't know what else I can say. I hope it makes sense. I hope it works out.

You're in my thoughts Max. If I may, what is wrong with her?
well part of the problem is not sure. She was told might be blood in her lungs and thats a real bad thing. Her lungs are hurting her shes so young and not a smoker I really dont understand whats going on.
Darkness. Trust me man I know what you mean I've had to go through this before its brutal I just dont know if I can do it again nearly broke me the first time
But thank you all so much your kind words and good wishes really help me. I'll make sure to keep you updated. Hopefully with great news.

I would say that you are in my prayers but God usually doesn't listen to me. :uhoh: All I can say is spend as much time as possible with her, and tell her everything, all of your thoughts on the time you spent together while in this lifetime. Don't hold anything back, and you won't have any regrets.

I am so sorry to hear that Ace. My prayers are with you. I pray for the best. Best wishes.

OK heres the crappy update. Well shes not feeling any better its not her lungs shes going for more tests on friday. What they think it is is her heart they think its going out. God its not fair just isnt!
Thank you all so much for your kind words and prayers It means so much to me! I really hope I can get you guys some good news soon. I really can't take this its killing me.
If it comes down to it i really would give her my heart and i'm not just saying that either i know damn well what it means for me but shes just too important for me to lose.
Shes so brave telling me not to worry and telling me that she doesn't mind shes looking forward to getting that job she filled out with god as an angel. I really love her i can't lose her. I'm breaking apart here! FUCK FUCK FUCK ok just needed to yell.

I know how you feel...

I was once in a similar situation when my friend also died for a reason I'm going to keep to myself for now.

Sorry to hear that Max, I'll keep her in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck.
Do you have have any idea what is wrong with her?

Im praying for you both

Mack is strong Max, you know it she will be alright :)

P']Do you have have any idea what is wrong with her?

Im praying for you both No not yet shes going for more tests friday i'll make sure I update as I can I hope its good news.

I know shes strong but shes everything to me i'm worried but i'm being strong for her.

Mack is strong Max, you know it she will be alright :)
D, are we talking the same Mack I think we're talkin? Damn man.

D, are we talking the same Mack I think we're talkin? Damn man.
HaHa

ive been following this thread and i am just wondering if there has been any more (hopefully good) news as of yet?

Something to remember.. god will take care of you and her regardless of what happens here.

be easy Max i'm prayin 2 man i'm prayin too...don't worry man i don't think that you'll lose her man.....you just gotta have faith in all that will be good...go to church....i'm hoping that history doesn't repeat itself man cuz i hate 2 see you like this...you gotta keep yourself up or else you'll get sick too man...don't worry it'll be fine :)

and if anything just talk to Dr. Hogie......not as good as Dr.Phil, but good enough :)

keep hope and i will pray for her

hopefully a good update will arrise

updates?

My deepest sympathies. Our prayers are with you.

i believe she'll be ok, if not she wouldve been gone already. just have faith and make the most of everything

Thanks a ton all again heres the half ass update on friday i gave her a call and her grandfolks showed up so we didn't get to talk. So i can't really say how she is now but i'll find out soon i think just finding out will help me alot.